Thursday, April 22, 2021

THE ORIGINS OF MANGLISH ~ by Antares (repost)

A Manglish Primer

Contrary to popular myth, I didn‘t invent Manglish. Nor would I blame it on the Chinese either. As a distinctive language in its own right, Manglish has been evolving quietly and discreetly since the British introduced English to these shores - but it has only been in evident use for about half a century. Prior to 1945 local Anglophones generally attempted to speak "the King's English" (later replaced by the BBC Overseas Service Standard English). Or else they were content to squawk at each other in some lewd and loud local lingo.

When British rule ended in 1957, out went the rules of spoken English - and that's how Manglish rapidly became a functional intermediary between our official first and second languages, Bahasa Malaysia and Business English. I first heard Manglish spoken when I entered the garment (ackchwurly government) primary school - the same year Britain handed Malaya back to the Malayans. To celebrate Independence, we unstiffened our upper lips and reveled in the ecstatic freedom of "seemply tokking kok." No longer would we tolerate being accused of speaking Bad English. We could now proudly proclaim our mastery of Good Manglish.

At home my parents communicated in a curious mixture of Cantonese and Missionary English - which wasn't quite the same potent concoction as Street Manglish. Somehow the species of English spoken in pre-Merdeka days didn't have the gutsy gutturality of Proper Manglish - perhaps because the local Anglophones were in awe of their Colonial masters and suffered from cultural cringe. 

Those with middle class aspirations attempted to speak what they thought was "the King's English" (later replaced by BBC Overseas Service Standard English). But they kept pretty much within their own racial boundaries, demonstrating the efficacy of the Divide-&-Rule Policy. A great deal more inter-ethnic socializing occurred in the post-Merdeka years, and this eventually produced an organic amalgam of vernacular idiosyncrasies - the glorious outcome being what is today universally known as Manglish.

In Singapore some folks speak Singlish - which, naturally, has a lot in common with Manglish, since both societies sprang from the same polyglot roots. However, the use of Singlish appears to be diminishing as the literacy level rises - and along with it, social aspirations. But I may be wrong. I wouldn't be at all surprised to receive an indignant email from Sylvia Toh Paik Choo of the Singlish Preservation Trust setting the record straight. In fact a Singlish rap album (Why You So Like Dat? produced by Siva Choy) made the charts in the early 1990s, proving that Singaporeans do possess a sense of humor.

Siva Choy raps in Singlish on his hit album Why You So Like Dat?

Manglish, in any case, seems to be thriving in Malaysia. Indeed there is a growing body of literature in Manglish (mostly generated by me) which has found its way into British Council language courses as teaching aids. Furthermore, studies such as this one have been commissioned by serious anthropological journals (none of which, alas, still exists) - which hardly augurs well for the continued growth and development of this embryonic industry. 

A real pity, as the terangslation - pardon, translation - of the World's Great Books into Proper Manglish (so that they will become accessible to everyone regardless of social background) will inevitably be retarded, along with the intellectual vibrancy of the nation. Manglish, after all, is the Great Equalizer. No one could possibly pull rank or put on airs when communicating in Manglish. You doan belif me ah? Seemply abzob all the impoting facks, and den go araun booshitting like nobody's beezniz until peeple oso ting you are a regular/decent/down-to-earth kind of fler.

A Word of Warning: If you happen to be a Mat Salleh (read White-Skinned Furriner), we advise you not to attempt speaking Manglish to every Malaysian you meet - unless specifically invited, or else you've lived here long enough to appreciate the indescribable delights of sambal belacan, durian and tempoyak (a piquant relish made from fermented durian). Otherwise you may inadvertently cause serious offence (Bladihel, you look down upon us ah? Yuting we cannot spikking your bladi langwidge one ah?) and find yourself arrested under the Infernal Sensitivities Act. Nonetheless, you may enjoy studying Manglish purely out of linguistic interest (so you can understand wat de local peeple are saying about you lah).

Credit must be given to two cunning linguists (and excellent musicians), Messrs Julian Mokhtar and Rafique Rashid, who sparked my interest in undertaking a formal study of Manglish phonetics and usage - which led to a standardization of spelling and the compilation of a Manglish glossary in 1988. The preliminary results of my research were published in ADOI! (Times Books International, 1989) and since then I have been commissioned to produce a growing body of literature in Manglish - including original poyems and terangslations of eggcerpts from Shakespeare, which appeared in the popular magazine, Manglish Review - whoops, I mean, Men's Review - in the mid-1990s.


A man walks into a department store and is greeted by a good-looking sales promoter.

SALESGIRL: Iffning, sir, how are you? Today got speshul awfer one. Leemeeted stork oni. Impotteds from the Germ Ernie. Got two-ear guarantee. 39.99 oni and summore you baiwanfriwan!

CUSTOMER: Aiseh, you look just like Hongkong star Anita Mui, don‘t get angry ah...

SALESGIRL: Ofcos aidontch-main, sir, I oso like Anita Mui wat, but whynotchew buy one and get one free, can gif to your gurfren?

CUSTOMER: Where I got gurfren, no taim lah. Eh, wat is your name ah, can tell ornot?

SALESGIRL: Aiyah, arfturds your gurfren jailus. Mister, better you buy now, tomollow awfer feenish oridi.

CUSTOMER: Aitoyu got no gurfren lah. How about you ah, got vacancy ornot? Eh, you feenish work we go for sahper, okay?

SALESGIRL: Aiyoh, aiskad oni lah, you so fast-fast one! Plis lah, sir, you hairp me, I hairp you lah, oni 39.99 wat, no nid to be so chipsket one lah!

CUSTOMER: Here‘s my card, plis call me wen you have freetaim, okay?

SALESGIRL: Betayudon gif card, sir. Managemen not allaud.

CUSTOMER: Bladihel, I gif to you, not to managemen wat!

SALESGIRL: Velly solly, sir, cannot like dat one, arfturds I lose my job den how? Solly ah.

CUSTOMER: Barsket, yuting you so bew-tifool ah?

SALESGIRL: Dis kind of peeple oso got. Cheh.


Coffeeshop scene featuring a gaggle of garrulous pensioners enjoying a few rounds of Guinness.

PENSIONER 1: Aitelyu de barger so-poorting, dah. Lastaim working for debladigarmen, 20-over years, boy. Fraskes oni, defler. Den olafasudden resign and join praivet sector... and wat happen 3 years later? Kena retrench, dah. Hauken dat old fart find anudder job. I arsk yu. Dailah.

PENSIONER 2: Huseso, dah, doan tokkok, man. His brudder-in-law told me defler kena lowtree man, first prize summore. But he wen araun telling wankain sob story, and now defler shiok oni. Tax exile in Labuan. Left his wife and married a Thai pondan – doan laugh ah, I hear damn seksi one, more beatifuller dan woman - and de barsket started his own ooi-dio production kompeni. I tink she got fren in porn beezniz. Many Thai people name Porn wat, heh heh.

PENSIONER 3: Eh, who you tokking about, dah? De fatty bom-bom Singh, izzit?

PENSIONER 2: Yala, Ajaib, yuting who?

PENSIONER 3: Alamak! Yesterday oni I saw de barger!

PENSIONER 1: Ya, ka? Where?

PENSIONER 3: Infrun Central Market lor.

PENSIONER 2: Wat defler doing there?

PENSIONER 3: Nothing much, lah, seemply stand outside KFC in white suit, look like Kernel Sanders lah, shaking hands with customers oni.

PENSIONER 1: Must be wang habis oridi lah, easy come easy go... marry golddigger pornstar summore. Aisehman, taim for anudder raun. Kamon, lah, I spen you flers. Orait!

PENSIONERS 1, 2 & 3: Bawtums up, dah.


Two old schoolchums bump into each other on the street.

PANG: Hoy, Dol! Long taim no see, man! So weh-yuattash now?

DOL: Aiyo, Pang, izzit? Steel wid debladigarmen, lah, watudu, got six mouse to feed, man. How about you, meelianair oridi ah‘?

PANG: Ha ha, sofanochet, not so easy mah. But working on it lah. Running my own carpet cleaning kompeni. Eh, here’s my card...

DOL: [READING CARD] Wah, Acksikutip Dairector... tera, man! Steel barechiller orwat?

PANG: Yala, where got taim to find wife, man. Make money first, den chewren. Dat’s wat my old man orways tell me.

DOL: Ha ha ha, good advice.... eh, I oso got card. Here, keep in touch, okay, oldfren.

PANG: [READING CARD] No booshit, man! Head of Maintenance Department ah? Wah, not bad, not bad.

DOL: Gimme a call anytaim. Use my hamfone number, okay?

PANG: Okay, man, next week I caw you. We go for makan lah... eh, Dol, you like seafood ornot?

DOL: No problem, towkay! Everyting oso I makan [WINKS]. Minum osoken. Cheevas Reegull, yutingwat!

ackchwurly - originally “actually” – used in Manglish as a sentence starter, e.g., “to be perfectly honest” or “frankly spikking ah.” 
ackshun (oni) - derived from “action” – meaning “to show off.” 
aidontch-main - corruption of "I don't mind" - the extraneous syllable 'ch' indicates that the speaker is well aware of the subtleties of the English language and is making an effort to sound the 't' in "don't." 
aisehman - contraction of "I say, man!" A totally meaningless utterance, most commonly used by those with absolutely nothing to say. 
aiskad (lah) - confession of nervousness, as in "I'm scared, don't have the guts to do it."
aisodono - expression of ignorance, probably imported from India, originally: "I also don't know" (polite variation of "Damned if I know!").
arfturds – contraction of “afterwards” – often used to imply consequence or effect, e.g., “You don’t hit me ah, arfturds I tell my farder!”; also used in place of “later” (“We go and see pickcher first, arfturds can have sahper.”) 
atoyu (wat) - gentle expression of triumph: "What did I tell you?" 
baiwanfriwan - ploy used mainly by Chinese shop assistants to promote sales: "If you buy one, you'll get one free!"  
barfellow – originally “buffalo” – a reference to bulk, usually signifying a clumsy oaf or plodder. 
barger – corruption of “bugger” – literally, pain-in-the-butt or nuisance.

barsket - uncouth interjection; term of derision, often preceded by the prefix "bladi." Probably a mangled compound of "blasted," "bastard" and "bugger. An all-purpose expression of acute annoyance, as in "Goddamn" or "Blast it!" 
betayudon - mild warning, as in "You'd better not do that." 
bladihel - exclamation conveying intense irritation; corruption of "bloody hell!" 
boh-sia – originally a Hokkien expression meaning “mute” but now loosely applied to teenage girls who hang out with, or put out for, sugar-daddies; frequently misheard as “Bosnia,” which arouses instant embarrassment, confusion, moral outrage or sympathy, not necessarily leading to charitable acts. 
bollsdar - rude retort favored by Malaysian Indians, especially Sikhs; essentially a scrotal reference devolved from "balderdash" or "bollocks." (The deliberate slurring of the commonly heard vernacular suffix 'lah' imparts a more emphatic measure of vulgarity. 
cari makan – popular Malay idiom, literally “looking for food” or “to eke out a living” – but usually employed as a rationale for selfish and myopic behavior. 
cheh – expression of total disgust, usually indicating that the user finds the entire subject vile, filthy, contemptible and unworthy of further discussion.

chipsket - contraction of "cheapskate," somebody not known to be generous; also used to describe anything low-cost. 
dai-lah - term of commiseration, usually mock, used in situations where an element of anxiety is present, e.g.,"Oh dear, now you've blown it!" or "Oh well, that's the end of that!" or "Shit! I'm in real trouble." 
debladigarmen - contraction of "the bloody government" - widely used scapegoat for all of life's disappointments, delays, denials, and prohibitions. 
defler - contraction of "that fellow." 
(doan) tokkok - playful insult ("Don't talk rubbish!"); the etymology of tokkok is uncertain but it probably derives from "talk cock" (as in "cock and bull" stories). 
fatty bom-bom – a juvenile reference to bulk; synonymous with “fatso” – a jocular and universally understood description of obesity. 
filim – mispronunciation of “film” – usually refers to movies, whether analog or digital.

fler - personal and/or impersonal reference, originally a contraction of "fellow" but frequently applied in neuter gender, e.g., "You flers better wochaut!" ("Don't any of you try to be funny!") 
fraskes - noun applied to any individual caught in an unenviable impasse; someone whose case is frustrating; could also imply sexual deprivation. 
gifchan (lah) - half-serious plea, as in "Give us a chance, will you?" Could also mean: "Please do us a favor." 
gurfren - slurring of “girlfriend.” 
hauken - another elastic expression applicable in almost any situation, e.g., "That's not right!" or "Impossible!" or "You don't say!" 
ho-laif - adverb, meaning "perpetually" (contraction of "whole life"). 
huseso - "Says who?" or "Who says so?" (alternatively, hused).  
hutoyu - mild challenge, as in "Who told you?" 
izzit - expression of mild unbelief: "Is that so?" 
izzenit - from "isn't it?" but applied very loosely at the end of any particular statement to elicit an immediate response, e.g., "Yused you will spen me a beer, izzenit?" 
kennonot - request or enquiry, contraction of "Can you or can you not?"; also used as "May I?" or "Will you?" or "Is it possible?" 
kenoso - affirmative, "can also"; in other words, "It's quite all right with me" (see osoken). 
kopi money - unofficial commission; bribe. 
lastaim - denotes the past ("last time"), though not necessarily in any specific sense: e.g., "Las-taim we orways see filim but nowadays stay home and watch dividi oni." 
latok - corruption of “datuk”; (i) “grandfather” in Malay; (ii) a tutelary spirit residing in trees and sacred spots; or (iii) an honorific bestowed on individuals deemed worthy (e.g., Malaysia’s best-loved cartoonist Lat, who’s now a “Latok”). Latokship is a much sought-after status symbol (for which some are willing to pay handsomely). 
mais-wan - possessive pronoun, meaning “it belongs to me” or “it’s mine.” Etymologically part of a family including yos-wan (“yours one”) and dias-wan (“their’s one”). 
mebeken - contraction of “maybe can”: in other words, “It may be possible…” 
nemmain - casual dismissal: "Never mind." 
notshai-wan - from "not shy one" - meaning "shameless" or not standing upon ceremony. 
nola - a dilute negative, used as a device to interrupt, deny, or cancel someone else's statement. 
olafasudden - melodramatic variation on “all of a sudden.” 
oridi - contraction of "already." 
osoken - affirmative, interchangeable with kenoso ("also can"); in other words, "Anything goes!" or "Fine by me!" 
ow-tah (punya) - temi of disparagement, meaning "utterly substandard." 
owk-steshen - from “outstation” - a relic of Colonial days when officials were often absent from their posts doing field work; in other words, “out of town” or “abroad.” 
podah - extremely dismissive term derived from street Tamil, as in "Go to hell!" or "Get stuffed!" or "Fuck off!" 
rigadingwat - interrogative used exclusively by telephonists and secretaries when you demand to speak to their bosses: "What is it regarding?" 
sahper - "supper," usually a major pig-out after a nocturnal shopping spree or pub-crawl. 
seehau - mangling of "let's wait and see how it turns out." 
shiok (oni) - expression of intense pleasure, etymology obscure. 
sofanochet - meaning "it hasn't happened yet"; can also be shortened to nochet, a slurring of "not yet.“ 
sohau - polite interrogative, usually used as greeting, e.g., "Well, how are things with you?" or "how goes it?" 
so-poorting - expression of sympathy or condolence: "You poor thing!" 
sorait - universal apology or palliative ("It‘s all right.") 
tera (oni) - noun describing someone who inspires awe, "a real terror." Often has a positive connotation, as in "defer wankain tera ladykiller lah!" 
tan-slee - corruption of “Tan Sri” - the equivalent of a knighthood. 
tingwat - highly adaptable expression stemming from "What do you think?" May be used as a challenge ("Who cares a hoot what you think!"); a rhetorical question ("Well, how about that?"); or as a friendly insult ("Please don’t inflict your abysmal ignorance on us!") - depending on context and intonation. 
wankain -(wan) - adjective denoting uniqueness, oddness, weirdness, extraordinariness: contraction of "one of a kind" (with "one" repeated for rhythmic symmetry). Sometimes rendered as wankain-oni (to emphasize the uniqueness). 
watudu - rhetorical question: "But what can we do?" An excellent excuse for apathy. 
weh-yuattash - polite question when introduced to a stranger: "Where are you attached to?" (in other words, "What do you do for a living?") 
wochaut - from "watch out" - an ominous threat favored by gangsters and polticians. 
yala - non-committal agreement, liberally used when confronted with a bore. A string of "yalas" issuing forth from your hapless listener is a sure sign that he or she wishes to terminate the conversation as soon as possible. 
yesa - general expression of interest, usually inserted as a question during conversations, as in "Oh, really?" 
yu-a-yu - term of friendly accusation, meaning "You're really too much!" 
yugifmisi - imperative indicating intense curiosity, as in: "Let me have a look!" 
yusobadwan - expression of mild reproach: "Hey, that's not very nice!"

[The Manglish Glossary originally appeared in ADOI! (Times Books International, 1989) which sold 13,000 copies and is currently accessible online. This version, first posted 5 October 2012 & reposted 3 June 2014 & 12 June 2020, has been slightly expanded.]

Saturday, April 17, 2021


Moai, gigantic stone statues on Rapa Nui (Easter Island)

Former Umno ministers?
Magnificent Seven
Crisscrossing the River of Life on our pilgrimage to The Mother
Cleansing the crystal body at the Elven Pool (photo: Aloisio Ferreira)
Alex & Mariana cool off in the Elven Pool (photo: Aloisio Ferreira)
Integrating Female-Male Polarities & aligning with the Heart of AN.
(L-R: Alex, Antares, Mariana, Hock, Aloisio, Suming)
Guardian of the Portal (photo: Aloisio Ferreira)
The Heart of AN ~ female and male forces in harmony
With love to Solara and all participants at the 'A Mu'a Ceremony, 20-21 April 2012
Solara and the True Ones in action on Rapa Nui (photo: Felipe Soares)

[First posted 21 April 2012]

Tuesday, April 13, 2021

More Short Poems (repost)

(for Mary Maguire)

Ah-khlah hahm braahoom-lahk hiss boo hahhah-kaak
belau’lah hoom herahah khlahee-hah hoom braa-heen
hoomphlaahk khareemph al’hahk-kahhoom hah-heemhlah
hiss boo belau’lah brahoom-lahk bar room tart!



I was sitting with my long hair
breathing in the air

a dwarf cycled by
stared hard at me

(this is a true story
only my name has been
changed to protect
the dwarf)


(to be delivered with a spicy Indian accent)

Paper is a fossil of wegetable matter
through which electric lifeforce
has traweled.

Light is luminous electricity.

Mirrors are mercuric elements
redirecting photoelectric images
to electrochemically controlled irises and lenses
along biomagnetic vaves (radio-photonated).

Ve human beings are eeels magnetized on eldoradiated
vheels vithin vheels of massive energy (wiwidly

Yany questions?



It’s lonely being God
Alone with your Thoughts,
Creatures by myriads
on planet grains swept by oceans
of form: writhing, rising and falling
in rhythm of time,
Not knowing whence they come
nor whither they go,
just living
and dying
and, every so often,
oddly enough, even

It’s fun to experience
the fruit of awareness
grown out of seeds of
simple existence;
to taste, to touch, to see,
to hear and smell
the life you’ve created.
But it’s so hard to find
someone to share your joys,
who understands that toys
are to play with
and not to stay with

God sends forth this prayer
hoping you and I will receive
and regard it:
"Dear Figments of My Own Imagination,
I wish you’d get out of my Mind
and make me your Friend.”


[From "Moth Balls, Scatological & Eschatological Poems," Magick River 1994. First posted 19 May 2007]

Tuesday, April 6, 2021

ANOORA CHAPEK: Her Life & Times (by Antares)

In 1992 I relocated from KL to Pertak, Ulu Selangor, and lived by a wild mountain stream with the indigenous Temuan tribe as my nearest neighbors. There was a bamboo hut on the property that needed a new roof and floor and I chanced upon Anoora’s mother Indah Merkol and stepfather Rasid Aus fishing in a nearby stream.

They said they could help fix the hut and that’s how I got to know the whole family, because quite a few of them got involved in collecting bertam leaves for the roof and splitting bamboo for the floor. It took about eight days to get the roof and floor replaced. We threw a party to inaugurate the Official Residence of the Ceremonial Guardian of Magick River and that’s how we got to know our Temuan neighbors better.

The first time I visited Indah and Rasid in their village down the road, Anoora came to the door and when she saw me she turned and ran back inside the house. But on my second visit I had my SLR camera and all the kids crowded round to be photographed. Anoora, who was called Noor by her family, stood shyly apart and when I asked if she would like to be photographed too, she smiled and nodded.

Over the next few years I managed to gather more information about Noor Chapek. She was born 14 April 1971 at the Hospital Orang Asli Gombak and someone arbitrarily gave her the name Noorhayati binti Chapek, even though her parents were both Temuan and would have been horrified that their daughter had been issued a Muslim name. But they were illiterate and the Orang Asli Affairs Department had adopted a policy of encouraging Orang Asli to convert to Islam.

Her birth records indicate that she had hydrocephalus (water in the head) and appeared monstrous to her mother, who tried to sell her to one of the nurses. By the time the water in her skull was drained she had suffered a degree of cerebral damage. Since Indah was indifferent to the baby, her father Chapek Jalil decided to take the baby to his sister in Pahang for fostering. Indah and Chapek were not getting along and eventually separated – but not till they had produced one last child together, a boy named Atut. 

After Chapek left her for another woman, Indah burnt her children’s birth certificates in anger, so when it came time for Anoora to get an identity card, the Orang Asli Affairs Department arbitrarily assigned her a random birthdate (4 June 1978), making her seven years younger than her true age. Her name was also shortened to Noor binti Chapek. She had contracted poliomyelitis when she was a toddler, just like her oldest brother Kasim, and they both ended up with a pronounced limp. 

Indah Merkol had lost her parents at age 10, when her tribe was rounded up by British soldiers and forced to live in an Orang Asli encampment with a barbwire fence and sentries on 24-hour watch. The British Military Administration wanted the Orang Asli out of the jungle, so they could not supply Chin Peng’s guerrilla army with food. Hundreds of Orang Asli became depressed and succumbed to all manner of fatal diseases, and this is how Indah lost her parents. This is why Indah’s children never had much mothering and grew apart from her when they had their own families.

When I got engaged to Anoora, I asked her if she would mind my adding two extra A’s to her registered name, so that it would sound more melodious. The way her family pronounced the Arabic name “Noor” they made it sound more like “Noh.” Anoora seemed to like her extra A’s but her family started calling her “Norah” (unable to hear the difference the additional A’s made to her name). 

I learned that Anoora had flunked Primary One twice and after that she stopped attending school. Perhaps she was unable to put up with being bullied by other kids or being pressured by well-meaning but heavy-handed teachers. Anoora’s father Chapek decided to retrieve her from her sister’s home in Pahang and bring her back to live in Kuala Kubu Bharu, in Kampung Tun Abdul Razak, with his new wife Uman and her own children from a previous marriage. I don’t know what age she was when she was relocated to KKB. Probably when she had polio, but that’s just a guess. I visited Chapek and Uman in Kampung Tun Abdul Razak from time to time after he had a stroke and was no longer able to tend his huge durian plantation in Sungai Tua, near Batu Caves.

Chapek Jalil, I learned, was descended from a bloodline that had been assigned the guardianship of Batu Caves – originally a Temuan sacred site associated with the legend of Nakhoda Si-Tanggang (which has in recent decades been co-opted as a Malay folk tale). As it turns out, a similar legend exists among many other indigenous tribes around Southeast Asia, warning against the arrogance that comes with elevated social status, causing us to despise our own humble origins.

On her mother’s side, I learned that the family totem was the dragon (naga). Anoora’s famous aunt, the celebrated Temuan ceremonial singer Minah Angong, often claimed that she could summon the dragon by singing a certain song to the river. Anoora’s late uncle Utat Merkol (who was married to two elf-maidens, called Orang Halus by the Temuan) once told me that I was married to the last of the tribal Dragonkeepers. Another uncle, Diap Ketum or Seri Pagi, was the last storyteller of the Temuan of Pertak.

When I met Indah and her third husband Rasid in 1992, Anoora had only recently moved in with her mother after living for years with her father in Kampung Tun Abdul Razak. This was decided after they realized she was susceptible to being lured into the bushes by smooth-talking young men during all-night wedding parties. Little did they know she would end up living with someone from an entirely different world.

Many have wondered (but never dared ask me) why I decided to marry Anoora Chapek. Her own mother believed that her daughter had been possessed by an elf-maiden who fell in love with me when I first arrived in this enchanted area. For my part, I only know that my heart spontaneously expanded when I met Anoora and learned about her difficult entry into the world and the travails of her childhood. I felt compelled to ensure that her later years would be pleasant and joyful beyond all expectations.

However, it was a long and arduous process, navigating the ego insecurity and pathological possessiveness she had inherited from Indah. There is a story to be told about how, in 2013, eighteen years after I wed Anoora in a 3-day tribal ceremony, Anoora began to liberate herself from the demon of self-destructive jealousy and slowly began to open her heart to everyone she met. But we shall leave that story for another day.

6 April 2021

Chapek Jalil, his second wife Uman & one of their many grandchildren
in Kg Tun Abdul Razak, Kuala Kubu Bharu, a few years before his death in 2015.

Friday, April 2, 2021

David Wilcock & Endgame Scenarios (repost)

More prophecies from David Wilcock...


Everything is alive. Everything is sacred. Everything has purpose.

Our lives on Earth are apparently being guided through a complex series of spiritual lessons, through multiple physical incarnations, to eventually reach the end of a 25,000-year cycle.

In 1981, Ra said this cycle would end in "approximately 30 years" - and later confirmed the year 2011 as being "an appropriate probable/possible time" for when we would reach the "quantum leap," as they called it.

They also said there would be no additional Earth Changes and related physical catastrophes once the cycle was over.

The Mayan Calendar was never mentioned. Nor was the year 2012. Nor was the Age of Aquarius. In 1981, hardly anyone even knew about the Mayan Calendar end-date - but the timelines still matched up. 2012 may still be a more accurate figure, as Ra said the 30-year window they gave was only "approximate."


At the end of this cycle - which is directly tethered to measurable movements of the Earth, Sun and Galaxy - we have the opportunity to "Graduate," and evolve into a higher form of what it means to be human.

All the greatest tricks you've seen anyone do in movies will soon become commonplace - for those who are ready to step into it.

We are told that the Earth is actually a vast school for spiritual learning - maintained by very high-level ETs whose job is to insure that you will find whatever you seek - whether positive or negative.

Ra's message, which included the physical gift of the Great Pyramid, was apparently co-opted by negative extraterrestrial humans.

These 'Gods' manipulated the Egyptian priesthood, many thousands of years ago, into creating a hierarchical, occult and self-serving system that amounts to a highly sophisticated form of black magic.

This was not Ra's original intent at all. At the very beginning of the Law of One series, Ra apologizes for having inadvertently and naively created the "negative elite" - or what most people would now call the New World Order or Illuminati.

Due to the free will principle, or "first distortion of the Law of One," as it is called, these negative forces have to be allowed to cause suffering, pain and even mass death here on Earth - within certain limits.


However, the part that so few people understand is that the negative elite are actually kept on a tight leash. They can only do what they are allowed to do - as a direct mirror of the negativity that we are creating as a people on this planet.

Now they are out of time. The cycle is about to end. They think they know what is going to happen, and that they can control the outcome, but this has always and forever been a great misperception on their part.

This is another area where the new research I've done is really a game-changer. Though they have preserved the knowledge of this cycle and believe it will lead to a worldwide cataclysm, they have been strongly misled.


The oldest prophecies that speak of this cycle change are from the Zoroastrian tradition. Zarathustra, whose name was Westernized as "Zoroaster", copied over ancient records from the primordial Aryan civilization. In The Source Field Investigations, I cite compelling evidence that the hub of this civilization was originally located in Siberia before the last great Ice Age.

This Ice Age, where the land was suddenly overrun by glaciers in a very short period of time and sea level rose by as much as 300 feet, appears to have been the result of a pole shift - where tropical areas suddenly became polar regions.

Atlantis, originally an "island continent" surrounded by water, became Antarctica - and all the water that washed over it was quick-frozen into ice. Some of the insiders I have spoken with have told me that most of the remains of Atlantis were crushed under this massive weight of ice - but there are certain pockets where you can still find some very neat stuff.


In the Law of One series, the Atlantean cataclysm is directly blamed on the use of nuclear weapons - not on a natural Earth cycle that was built into the design of the Universe to wipe us out.

It appears that the world's elite are unaware of this, and believe that the Earth intends to kill us off at the end of a cycle as a natural part of what happens. They see this as proof that their negative, every-man-for-himself, Deist philosophy is in fact the way the Universe works.

They are eagerly awaiting what they think is going to be a massive catastrophe that destroys almost all life on Earth - unless you've hidden out in an underground or off-world base.

The movie '2012' lays out their plans for how they think this is going to happen. Watch the end-credits all the way through and you will see that the movie was based on Fingerprints of the Gods by Graham Hancock, which was about Atlantis.

They absolutely believe that whatever happened to Atlantis is a natural cycle, and it will happen again in or around 2012 - perhaps closer to 2017, based on what some insiders have told me. Others disagree with this and think it is indeed 2012.


Plato's original account of Atlantis formed the basis of everything else that followed. It has given irreversible credibility to any discussion of "the A word," particularly in light of all the physical evidence of massive stone structures that were left behind.

Plato's report clearly indicates that the Atlanteans were at war with a rival civilization. The Cayce Readings said this civilization later migrated to India, but in ancient times they were called "Rama."

Other scholars such as David Hatcher Childress - who has appeared in many episodes of Ancient Aliens on History Channel, including several that I was in - found independent validation of Cayce's account:

The so-called "Rama Empire" of Northern India and Pakistan developed at least fifteen thousand years ago on the Indian sub-continent and was a nation of many large, sophisticated cities, many of which are still to be found in the deserts of Pakistan, northern, and western India.

Rama existed, apparently, parallel to the Atlantean civilization in the mid-Atlantic Ocean, and was ruled by "enlightened Priest-Kings" who governed the cities, The seven greatest capital cities of Rama were known in classical Hindu texts as "The Seven Rishi Cities."

According to ancient Indian texts, the people had flying machines which were called Vimanas. The ancient Indian epic describes a Vimana as a double-deck, circular aircraft with portholes and a dome, much as we would imagine a flying saucer.

It flew with the "speed of the wind" and gave forth a "melodious sound." There were at least four different types of Vimanas; some saucer shaped, others like long cylinders ("cigar shaped airships").

The ancient Indian texts on Vimanas are so numerous, it would take volumes to relate what they had to say.

The ancient Indians, who manufactured these ships themselves, wrote entire flight manuals on the control of the various types of Vimanas, many of which are still in existence, and some have even been translated into English.


In Plato's account, the people of Egypt and Greece united against the Atlanteans, who were trying to colonize their land -- and fended them off. Shortly after this defeat, Atlantis sank - but the Egyptians did not know why.
I want you to read the whole story for yourself - as it was originally written in the Timaeus. I have bolded certain passages for emphasis. One of them negates many common, faltering attempts to identify Atlantis as a small island -- as it was "larger than Libya and Asia put together":
Many great and wonderful deeds are recorded of your state in our histories. But one of them exceeds all the rest in greatness and valour.

For these histories tell of a mighty power which unprovoked made an expedition against the whole of Europe and Asia, and to which your city put an end.

This power came forth out of the Atlantic Ocean, for in those days the Atlantic was navigable; and there was an island situated in front of the straits which are by you called the Pillars of Heracles.

The island was larger than Libya and Asia put together, and was the way to other islands, and from these you might pass to the whole of the opposite continent which surrounded the true ocean...

Now in this island of Atlantis there was a great and wonderful empire which had rule over the whole island and several others, and over parts of the continent.

Furthermore, the men of Atlantis had subjected the parts of Libya within the columns of Heracles as far as Egypt, and of Europe as far as Tyrrhenia.

This vast power, gathered into one, endeavoured to subdue at a blow our country and yours and the whole of the region within the straits.

And then, Solon, your country shone forth, in the excellence of her virtue and strength, among all mankind. She was pre-eminent in courage and military skill, and was the leader of the Hellenes.

And when the rest fell off from her, being compelled to stand alone, after having undergone the very extremity of danger, she defeated and triumphed over the invaders - and preserved from slavery those who were not yet subjugated, and generously liberated all the rest of us who dwell within the pillars.

But afterwards there occurred violent earthquakes and floods; and in a single day and night of misfortune all your warlike men in a body sank into the earth, and the island of Atlantis in like manner disappeared in the depths of the sea.

For which reason the sea in those parts is impassable and impenetrable, because there is a shoal of mud in the way; and this was caused by the subsidence of the island.

Plato got in serious trouble for 'leaking' this secret account of Atlantis from the Egyptian priesthood. Ever since he wrote it, scholars have been hunting for proof of Atlantis and have tried to understand exactly what happened, and where it was. The Cayce Readings and the Law of One series, when combined, give us new insights that dovetail nicely with provable evidence we can dig up through research.

According to the Law of One series, Atlantis sank because of a nuclear attack - not a natural Earth cycle. The Cayce Readings imply a similar story... and given the reliability of the Law of One series in so many other areas, I'm inclined to think it is correct.


When we put all the pieces together, this is what appears to have happened.

Soon after Egypt and Greece fended off the Atlantean invasion, the Ramans dropped nukes on Atlantis in an attempt to defeat them and force them to surrender - similar to how America ended World War II by nuking Japan.

There are several obvious references to the use of nuclear weapons in the Hindu Vedic scriptures - which are easily found with a quick Google search. Instead of winning the war, the Ramans threw the Earth into an unimaginable catastrophe - and ruined it for everyone. No one could have imagined that nuclear weapons would be powerful enough to shift the Earth's equilibrium in space, causing tropical regions to become polar - and vice versa.


The survivors of the Rama empire became known as the 'Aryans.'

These original 'Aryans' were not Caucasian at all. As ice swept over the former paradise of Siberia, they migrated southwards in two groups - one to India and one to Iran.

The latest, greatest scholarship on the Aryan civilization pinpoints Siberia as their main center of origin - and the Zoroastrian scriptures clearly say they had to evacuate and move south due to the sudden crush of ice and terrible winter weather. It appears that 'Gods' continued interacting with the Indians - which is not necessarily a bad thing.

Zarathustra, however, adhered more closely to the original ancient Raman records. This therefore appears to be the closest we can get to what the original, ancient, positive ETs actually told us about the end of the 25,000-year cycle.

The original teachings were almost certainly given before the Ramans nuked Atlantis. I highly doubt the positive ETs had anything to do with this horrific attack - and would have stopped it if they had caught it fast enough.

Now, the ETs are being vastly more careful, and precisely monitor any and all nuclear sites on Earth - as I have written about in detail several times before. Many disasters have been stopped. According to scholars, the Zoroastrian prophecies influenced every other Western culture and its view of what will happen in "end times" - including Judaism and Christianity.

Without exception, every Jew, every Christian and every Muslim owes their vision of an End of the Age to the Zoroastrian inheritance - not to mention any and all of the secret mystery schools. Unfortunately, like the "telephone game," the story has been significantly changed over time.


In The Source Field Investigations, I cite breathtaking new research into the original Zoroastrian scriptures by Boyce and Grenet, which conclusively proves that the original prophecies did not say the world would be wiped out by this cycle change. Using new data that only became available in very recent times, Boyce and Grenet identified that this "doom and gloom" element was originally added in by the early Hebrews.

Boyce and Grenet feel this probably was the result of their imprisonment and enslavement by the Egyptians - and how that horrible suffering in turn affected their view of future events. It is also easy to see how anyone in possession of the secret story of Atlantis could assume that the cataclysm was caused by this same cycle - and not through the use of massive weapons that couldn't have even been imagined in those times.

This same mistake persists through until the present day - as seen by the creators of the movie 2012 optioning the rights to Graham Hancock's Fingerprints of the Gods, which was about the fall of Atlantis.


The actual Zoroastrian prophecies are quite amazing. They do indicate the possibility that the flow of time itself, as we now know it, goes through some sort of radical change. Something profound happens at the most basic level of matter, energy and consciousness.

This seems impossible to most people and undoubtedly triggers sarcastic laughter - but this will also change once people study the "Magnificent" scientific evidence I present in the new book - as Graham Hancock called it. This massive 'download' of information comes out in a gorgeous hardcover book on August 18th, and is already available for pre-orders - at a much lower price than retail!

My publisher tells me that if a mere two days' worth of the people who visit our site pre-order this book before August 18th, we will automatically debut on the New York Times best-seller list.

Why does this matter? It has nothing to do with ego or generating lots of money. (In fact, we make a lot less on Amazon pre-orders anyway... since you will get it for ten dollars less than the retail price.) No... this is about making our voice heard, and getting this information out to the mainstream. It's about credibility. This book takes you far beyond any Disclosure involving a formal announcement that ETs exist. It is an awe-inspiring summary of all the science that has been suppressed by the negative elite - for at least the last century.

You can lock it in now at this super-low price anyone can afford, forget about it, and know that it will deliciously arrive in the mail... at the earliest possible second that it becomes available. Thank you so much for helping us out! Everything I've ever said in any of my lectures or videos is in here, with extensive documented references -- plus much more that no one has ever seen or heard.


There is no doubt that the Zoroastrian texts predict a major energetic event. However, it is also clearly spelled out that it does not wipe out the Earth in cataclysms. Furthermore, these scriptures clearly indicate that the negative will be defeated - not in one sudden, stunning blow, but gradually weakening more and more until they finally just give out.

I believe that prophecy is about to come true - and may even have been fulfilled, to a large degree, before the book comes out. This is one of the most exciting articles I've ever written, because everything I've been telling you to expect for so long is finally happening. Japan was a terrible disaster and we can't change that. However, if you think this is just going to go on and on, I believe you have missed the point.


The negative elite are on their last legs - and at this point, there are remarkable news events that prove everything I've been saying is correct. This means it is very likely that we are about to see the perpetrators go into hiding - and whenever this happens, it will be quite a massive change in society and government as we know it.

They believe it will create anarchy and chaos. I personally do not. Nonetheless it is good to have some stored food and water on hand so you can be prepared for the worst, just in case. The insiders say to be ready for six months. I highly doubt there will be disruptions of anywhere near that length. However, if you end up in an area where there are short-term problems, obviously it's good to have some basic supplies at home.


I don't like dropping dates, but April 8th is going to be a very, very interesting day. This has gotten a bit long, so I will save the bulk of this argument for an update that will emerge by or before this date. Three different massive events all coalesce on this one focal-point - just a week before taxes are due in the US:

SUPREME COURT RULES AGAINST THE FED: The Supreme Court has given the Federal Reserve a two-week deadline to reveal where the money went - as of Monday, March 21st. This decision is one of the most significant events in American history. That brings us to April 4th - four days before the 8th.

GOVERNMENT SHUTDOWN: The Democrats and Republicans in Congress cannot agree on a budget. The US government will therefore shut down as of April 8th -- and there is no indication anyone will stop it. That means no paychecks, no services, et cetera -- for an indeterminate time.

NEW BRETTON WOODS: On this very same day, the first meeting to completely overhaul the world's financial system will take place. Other countries will now have much more of a say. This is the literal fulfillment of everything Fulford and I have been saying for so long. This will create a massive wave of prosperity and directly pave the way for the release of clean, 'free' energy technology.


The final 'endgame' plan of the insiders, as I understand it, is to hit the US with a massive earthquake along the New Madrid fault line during the same approximate time that the government goes into shutdown.

Then, they hope, all the welfare recipients and government employees stop getting their money due to the shutdown. Society quickly disintegrates as all the services stop happening. Meanwhile, the perpetrators flee, or have already fled the country. I'm frankly amazed the conspiracy media hasn't put all this together yet, but they will soon enough. We'll get to that in Part Two. Suffice it to say I do not believe these events will unfold as they are planning.


I think it is very important to understand that the majority of the people in these negative groups are only cooperating because they have been forced to. I know some of them myself and am aware of the horrors they have been subjected to. Did we blame every German for the actions of Hitler and his cohorts in World War II, and hold each of them equally accountable?

Recent dreams have again indicated that many people will not share this view, and will react with fear and violence - at least at first. I do not judge or condemn you if you've been involved in this. You have a safe place here and will not be hated or criticized. Your leaders have lied to you by making you think that if there is a God, you would be rejected. I am personally aware of what you have been through. I am sorry about what happened to you. And I want you to know there is a way out of this that doesn't involve you being tortured like an animal.


There is abundant evidence that the "negative elite" have been trying to collapse the Earth into worldwide anarchy, chaos and pandemonium throughout the entire 20th century, and on into today - but somehow it just never works out that way. They still don't understand that they get their marching orders directly from the people. They are only allowed to create negativity to a degree that is sufficient to balance what We, The People create within our own lives.

The Law of One series tells us our lives on Earth are part of a vast illusion. It is so carefully maintained that even these great worldly powers - with time-traveling technology they got from ETs and other neat toys - are completely unaware of the fact that their plans can never succeed.


If you could see things from Ra's perspective, you would understand that ultimately there is no drama. There is no crisis. There is no conflict. There are no paradoxes.

There is only 'catalyst', as they call it - experiences that we will be offered to the exact degree of precision necessary to open our hearts and awaken our minds. We live in a spiritual reality. Everything we think, see and do is being scrupulously monitored and studied by a greater aspect of our own selves.

Your "Higher Self" already exists now - in what you would think of as the future. It is millions of years more advanced than the level you appear to be at now. Nonetheless, since it exists in a reality where time is not confined to a linear progression, it works to guide you through your life. Dreams are one important way for your Higher Self to get a message through. At other times, the world itself follows the language and logic of the dream plane.

Disclosure - the concept of extraterrestrial humans being formally introduced to us - would definitely represent an irreversible tipping-point in our planet's history, where many apparent dreams suddenly become vividly real.

For two years now, Fulford has been saying that once the Federal Reserve is defeated and a new financial system is announced, we will get Disclosure of free energy technologies that can radically change the planet.
He has also been saying, for two years, that Japan was being threatened with earthquake weapons that would trigger a nuclear disaster - because Japan cut off the flow of money to the Rockefeller faction that has been in place since Rockefeller money was loaned to them, at an exploitive rate, to rebuild their country after World War II.

Now do you see why I'm so excited about what is about to happen?


The story goes much, much farther than this - but right for now, I just want to get this preliminary summary out there. The rest will follow as soon as I get the chance.

You can be with me on April 8th in San Francisco - and get live updates as they come in about what, if anything, happens. We also have a major event coming up in London - so if you are in Europe, this is your big chance!

The Access Your Higher Self video gives you a nearly four-hour course in how to remember, analyze and understand your dreams, and develop your deepest psychic abilities - using the same protocols I developed myself. Many people have jumped in and feel it is well worth the price! Thanks again for all your support. Look within your heart and you will find the answers you seek.

[First posted 6 April 2011]

Sunday, March 28, 2021

I WEEP FOR YOU, POOR DR M (revisited)

[It's been nearly 20 years since I sent this impassioned email to Dr M, at the height of Anwar Ibrahim's mock trial at Augustine Paul's kangaroo court. Guess I was emotionally distraught at the time, despairing at the evil I saw permeating every one of our institutions and seeing so many true patriots arrested under the accursed ISA. My feelings haven't changed, though these days I would probably be a wee bit less self-righteous and a little kinder, having realized that Dr M is, after all, just my own autocratic aspect on a permanent bad hair day.]

Subject: I weep for you, poor Dr M
Date: Sun, 13 May 2001 18:36:53 +0800
From: Antares
To: The Prime Minister of Malaysia


[Delivered in lieu of a tight slap]

I weep for you, poor Dr M
For the terror you must feel
As you gaze upon your final days
From the dizzy heights you've climbed
And you begin to realize
There's nowhere else for you to go
But down, down, down.

The evil you have brought to bear
Upon the spirit of our nation fair
Will never be forgotten -
Not in a hundred years;
And though you cry a thousand tears,
For you there can be no atonement.

You have forfeit your right to a fair trial
By your denial of the basic rights of those
Who oppose your ugly creed;
Your thoughts and deeds have become so vile
As to be almost unspeakable -
I feel the utmost loathing when I think of you
And yet I am driven to feelings of pity.

How will you plead when your soul is weighed
Against all the principles you have betrayed
In your ruthless ambition to succeed
By toying with the forces of fear and greed?

I know you couldn't have done it all alone;
You had to corrupt everyone
Who came into contact with you -
All the men in black and all the boys in blue,
Even the men in white, and your own children too.

Courtesy of Lulu's blog

You could say it was Siti Hasmah who made you do it -
You may curse her with your dying breath
For turning you into another Macbeth.
Both of you sought power and glory
Yet no one knows her sad, sad story:
She wanted her husband to be Mr Big
To make up for the fact that she wears a wig!

I weep for you, Augustine Paul and Abdul Gani Patail:
One fine day you'll be brought to trial
Before the Court of True Justice
And all the innocent ones whose lives you have defiled.
And as for you, Mohtar Abdullah, who knows no shame:
I believe all your children will have to change their names.

I weep for you, poor little rich henchmen (and women)
Who have signed a blood pact with Dr Mephistopheles:
All you corrupt and cynical backers and backbenchers
Of the Barisan Nazional who ought to have quit
While you still had a chance to go down in history

But it's too late now, you've blown your chance!
Your bank balances you had hoped to advance,
Regardless of how low you had to go
To keep up a show, to save your own face,
And protect yourselves from utter disgrace.

I weep for your benighted souls
And your hearts that have turned so cold;
I shed a tear for the decency and humanity
You have mortgaged in utter vanity.

I do not weep for those who have died
Or have been arrested, tortured, and tried
For merely voicing aloud their minds
In hopes of fairer, freer times.
Those who have suffered at the hands of villainy
Have already won a permanent place
In the gallery of national heroes.
Excuse me now as I chant a litany
To rid this land of noxious tyranny:

Hidup Keadilan!
Hidup Kebebasan!
Hidup Kebenaran!
Hidup Rakyat Malaysia!
Hidup Semangat Demokrasi!



Dr M, I invite you to come and have a heart-to-heart chat with me. I'll even serve you tea and cakes. But please arrive without your heavily armed goons. True communication is only possible between equals. Perhaps you're not really interested in true communication - only obtaining PR mileage from being photographed with the likes of Nelson Mandela and Fidel Castro (if only they knew what damage they have done to their own credibility and stature as world leaders!)

Well, even at this late hour, it's still possible to redeem yourself and facilitate a genuine reconciliation across the nation. I would be the first to shake your hand if you would only concede that you have allowed your personal whims to override the national interest: that you have grossly overreacted in seeking vengeance against your erstwhile heir apparent, Anwar Ibrahim, and have in the process effectively privatized the Royal Malaysian Police and made it your personal terrorist squad; that you have been barking up the wrong developmental tree, promoting physical growth at the expense of mental and spiritual - and thereby putting the integrity of our ecosystem in grave jeopardy. Merely concede that serious misjudgments have brought about the current political divide and economic malaise - and we can begin again together to heal and restore this beautiful and prosperous country to its true destiny, not as a nation of criminally-inclined and egomaniacal fools, but as courageous, compassionate, enlightened men and women worthy of planetary - nay, galactic - citizenship.

Upon receipt of this open letter addressed to you, you can choose one of three options:

1) Ignore and delete, dismissing this message as the rantings of yet another lunatic dissident, another "voice in the wilderness." But do so at your own peril. I have never been inspired to address you directly. The fact that I have indicates the gravity of the situation.

2) Order your secret police to investigate and, if necessary, arrest and interrogate me.

3) Call a special press conference and announce three things: (i) you will permit Anwar Ibrahim to receive the medical attention he seeks in Munich and begin legal proceedings to drop all charges against him (hasn't the man and his family suffered enough already at your hands?); (ii) all political detainees will be immediately and unconditionally released with sincere apologies to their families for the anxiety and distress caused; (iii) you will accept Suhakam's recommendations to abolish the ISA, the OSA, the Printing Presses and Publications Act, the Universities Act, and the Illegal Assembly clause in the Police Act.

I'm positive that all Malaysians will receive this news as a veritable miracle (and Heaven knows we're desperately in need of one). No one will actively push to punish you or your family for whatever financial misdemeanors may have been perpetrated in the past. All your best intentions and noblest visions for the nation will be reassessed in a more positive light, and your lifelong dedication to the nation's service will be acknowledged and honored.

For too long you have surrounded yourself with those who are either aligned with your personal agenda or who are in utter fear of your displeasure. Inevitably, you have become disconnected with reality, with how the masses honestly feel about your autocratic management style (which is fast becoming anachronistic as we move into the 21st century).

I neither fear your displeasure nor seek your destruction (truly, I ask only that you re-examine your worldview and make the necessary reattunements before it's too late - believe me, it's NEVER too late!).

Without intending to overdramatize, Dr M, this is definitely your last chance to turn inevitable disaster into the greatest triumph of your political career - to become once again a loved and respected world statesman.


Antares (the erstwhile Kit Leee)
Mother's Day
13 May 2001

This email was posted TWICE to Dr Mahathir. Once on May 13, using my tmnet SMTP server with a bcc to myself and about 130 others. When the post failed to appear in my inbox I reposted it from my Yahoo! address. Recipients on the second posting have confirmed receipt. A week later, I have received no response from the Incurable Doctor. [May 20, 2001]

[First posted 26 March 2008]