Tuesday, April 13, 2021

More Short Poems (repost)

(for Mary Maguire)

Ah-khlah hahm braahoom-lahk hiss boo hahhah-kaak
belau’lah hoom herahah khlahee-hah hoom braa-heen
hoomphlaahk khareemph al’hahk-kahhoom hah-heemhlah
hiss boo belau’lah brahoom-lahk bar room tart!



I was sitting with my long hair
breathing in the air

a dwarf cycled by
stared hard at me

(this is a true story
only my name has been
changed to protect
the dwarf)


(to be delivered with a spicy Indian accent)

Paper is a fossil of wegetable matter
through which electric lifeforce
has traweled.

Light is luminous electricity.

Mirrors are mercuric elements
redirecting photoelectric images
to electrochemically controlled irises and lenses
along biomagnetic vaves (radio-photonated).

Ve human beings are eeels magnetized on eldoradiated
vheels vithin vheels of massive energy (wiwidly

Yany questions?



It’s lonely being God
Alone with your Thoughts,
Creatures by myriads
on planet grains swept by oceans
of form: writhing, rising and falling
in rhythm of time,
Not knowing whence they come
nor whither they go,
just living
and dying
and, every so often,
oddly enough, even

It’s fun to experience
the fruit of awareness
grown out of seeds of
simple existence;
to taste, to touch, to see,
to hear and smell
the life you’ve created.
But it’s so hard to find
someone to share your joys,
who understands that toys
are to play with
and not to stay with

God sends forth this prayer
hoping you and I will receive
and regard it:
"Dear Figments of My Own Imagination,
I wish you’d get out of my Mind
and make me your Friend.”


[From "Moth Balls, Scatological & Eschatological Poems," Magick River 1994. First posted 19 May 2007]

Tuesday, April 6, 2021

ANOORA CHAPEK: Her Life & Times (by Antares)

In 1992 I relocated from KL to Pertak, Ulu Selangor, and lived by a wild mountain stream with the indigenous Temuan tribe as my nearest neighbors. There was a bamboo hut on the property that needed a new roof and floor and I chanced upon Anoora’s mother Indah Merkol and stepfather Rasid Aus fishing in a nearby stream.

They said they could help fix the hut and that’s how I got to know the whole family, because quite a few of them got involved in collecting bertam leaves for the roof and splitting bamboo for the floor. It took about eight days to get the roof and floor replaced. We threw a party to inaugurate the Official Residence of the Ceremonial Guardian of Magick River and that’s how we got to know our Temuan neighbors better.

The first time I visited Indah and Rasid in their village down the road, Anoora came to the door and when she saw me she turned and ran back inside the house. But on my second visit I had my SLR camera and all the kids crowded round to be photographed. Anoora, who was called Noor by her family, stood shyly apart and when I asked if she would like to be photographed too, she smiled and nodded.

Over the next few years I managed to gather more information about Noor Chapek. She was born 14 April 1971 at the Hospital Orang Asli Gombak and someone arbitrarily gave her the name Noorhayati binti Chapek, even though her parents were both Temuan and would have been horrified that their daughter had been issued a Muslim name. But they were illiterate and the Orang Asli Affairs Department had adopted a policy of encouraging Orang Asli to convert to Islam.

Her birth records indicate that she had hydrocephalus (water in the head) and appeared monstrous to her mother, who tried to sell her to one of the nurses. By the time the water in her skull was drained she had suffered a degree of cerebral damage. Since Indah was indifferent to the baby, her father Chapek Jalil decided to take the baby to his sister in Pahang for fostering. Indah and Chapek were not getting along and eventually separated – but not till they had produced one last child together, a boy named Atut. 

After Chapek left her for another woman, Indah burnt her children’s birth certificates in anger, so when it came time for Anoora to get an identity card, the Orang Asli Affairs Department arbitrarily assigned her a random birthdate (4 June 1978), making her seven years younger than her true age. Her name was also shortened to Noor binti Chapek. She had contracted poliomyelitis when she was a toddler, just like her oldest brother Kasim, and they both ended up with a pronounced limp. 

Indah Merkol had lost her parents at age 10, when her tribe was rounded up by British soldiers and forced to live in an Orang Asli encampment with a barbwire fence and sentries on 24-hour watch. The British Military Administration wanted the Orang Asli out of the jungle, so they could not supply Chin Peng’s guerrilla army with food. Hundreds of Orang Asli became depressed and succumbed to all manner of fatal diseases, and this is how Indah lost her parents. This is why Indah’s children never had much mothering and grew apart from her when they had their own families.

When I got engaged to Anoora, I asked her if she would mind my adding two extra A’s to her registered name, so that it would sound more melodious. The way her family pronounced the Arabic name “Noor” they made it sound more like “Noh.” Anoora seemed to like her extra A’s but her family started calling her “Norah” (unable to hear the difference the additional A’s made to her name). 

I learned that Anoora had flunked Primary One twice and after that she stopped attending school. Perhaps she was unable to put up with being bullied by other kids or being pressured by well-meaning but heavy-handed teachers. Anoora’s father Chapek decided to retrieve her from her sister’s home in Pahang and bring her back to live in Kuala Kubu Bharu, in Kampung Tun Abdul Razak, with his new wife Uman and her own children from a previous marriage. I don’t know what age she was when she was relocated to KKB. Probably when she had polio, but that’s just a guess. I visited Chapek and Uman in Kampung Tun Abdul Razak from time to time after he had a stroke and was no longer able to tend his huge durian plantation in Sungai Tua, near Batu Caves.

Chapek Jalil, I learned, was descended from a bloodline that had been assigned the guardianship of Batu Caves – originally a Temuan sacred site associated with the legend of Nakhoda Si-Tanggang (which has in recent decades been co-opted as a Malay folk tale). As it turns out, a similar legend exists among many other indigenous tribes around Southeast Asia, warning against the arrogance that comes with elevated social status, causing us to despise our own humble origins.

On her mother’s side, I learned that the family totem was the dragon (naga). Anoora’s famous aunt, the celebrated Temuan ceremonial singer Minah Angong, often claimed that she could summon the dragon by singing a certain song to the river. Anoora’s late uncle Utat Merkol (who was married to two elf-maidens, called Orang Halus by the Temuan) once told me that I was married to the last of the tribal Dragonkeepers. Another uncle, Diap Ketum or Seri Pagi, was the last storyteller of the Temuan of Pertak.

When I met Indah and her third husband Rasid in 1992, Anoora had only recently moved in with her mother after living for years with her father in Kampung Tun Abdul Razak. This was decided after they realized she was susceptible to being lured into the bushes by smooth-talking young men during all-night wedding parties. Little did they know she would end up living with someone from an entirely different world.

Many have wondered (but never dared ask me) why I decided to marry Anoora Chapek. Her own mother believed that her daughter had been possessed by an elf-maiden who fell in love with me when I first arrived in this enchanted area. For my part, I only know that my heart spontaneously expanded when I met Anoora and learned about her difficult entry into the world and the travails of her childhood. I felt compelled to ensure that her later years would be pleasant and joyful beyond all expectations.

However, it was a long and arduous process, navigating the ego insecurity and pathological possessiveness she had inherited from Indah. There is a story to be told about how, in 2013, eighteen years after I wed Anoora in a 3-day tribal ceremony, Anoora began to liberate herself from the demon of self-destructive jealousy and slowly began to open her heart to everyone she met. But we shall leave that story for another day.

6 April 2021

Chapek Jalil, his second wife Uman & one of their many grandchildren
in Kg Tun Abdul Razak, Kuala Kubu Bharu, a few years before his death in 2015.

Friday, April 2, 2021

David Wilcock & Endgame Scenarios (repost)

More prophecies from David Wilcock...


Everything is alive. Everything is sacred. Everything has purpose.

Our lives on Earth are apparently being guided through a complex series of spiritual lessons, through multiple physical incarnations, to eventually reach the end of a 25,000-year cycle.

In 1981, Ra said this cycle would end in "approximately 30 years" - and later confirmed the year 2011 as being "an appropriate probable/possible time" for when we would reach the "quantum leap," as they called it.

They also said there would be no additional Earth Changes and related physical catastrophes once the cycle was over.

The Mayan Calendar was never mentioned. Nor was the year 2012. Nor was the Age of Aquarius. In 1981, hardly anyone even knew about the Mayan Calendar end-date - but the timelines still matched up. 2012 may still be a more accurate figure, as Ra said the 30-year window they gave was only "approximate."


At the end of this cycle - which is directly tethered to measurable movements of the Earth, Sun and Galaxy - we have the opportunity to "Graduate," and evolve into a higher form of what it means to be human.

All the greatest tricks you've seen anyone do in movies will soon become commonplace - for those who are ready to step into it.

We are told that the Earth is actually a vast school for spiritual learning - maintained by very high-level ETs whose job is to insure that you will find whatever you seek - whether positive or negative.

Ra's message, which included the physical gift of the Great Pyramid, was apparently co-opted by negative extraterrestrial humans.

These 'Gods' manipulated the Egyptian priesthood, many thousands of years ago, into creating a hierarchical, occult and self-serving system that amounts to a highly sophisticated form of black magic.

This was not Ra's original intent at all. At the very beginning of the Law of One series, Ra apologizes for having inadvertently and naively created the "negative elite" - or what most people would now call the New World Order or Illuminati.

Due to the free will principle, or "first distortion of the Law of One," as it is called, these negative forces have to be allowed to cause suffering, pain and even mass death here on Earth - within certain limits.


However, the part that so few people understand is that the negative elite are actually kept on a tight leash. They can only do what they are allowed to do - as a direct mirror of the negativity that we are creating as a people on this planet.

Now they are out of time. The cycle is about to end. They think they know what is going to happen, and that they can control the outcome, but this has always and forever been a great misperception on their part.

This is another area where the new research I've done is really a game-changer. Though they have preserved the knowledge of this cycle and believe it will lead to a worldwide cataclysm, they have been strongly misled.


The oldest prophecies that speak of this cycle change are from the Zoroastrian tradition. Zarathustra, whose name was Westernized as "Zoroaster", copied over ancient records from the primordial Aryan civilization. In The Source Field Investigations, I cite compelling evidence that the hub of this civilization was originally located in Siberia before the last great Ice Age.

This Ice Age, where the land was suddenly overrun by glaciers in a very short period of time and sea level rose by as much as 300 feet, appears to have been the result of a pole shift - where tropical areas suddenly became polar regions.

Atlantis, originally an "island continent" surrounded by water, became Antarctica - and all the water that washed over it was quick-frozen into ice. Some of the insiders I have spoken with have told me that most of the remains of Atlantis were crushed under this massive weight of ice - but there are certain pockets where you can still find some very neat stuff.


In the Law of One series, the Atlantean cataclysm is directly blamed on the use of nuclear weapons - not on a natural Earth cycle that was built into the design of the Universe to wipe us out.

It appears that the world's elite are unaware of this, and believe that the Earth intends to kill us off at the end of a cycle as a natural part of what happens. They see this as proof that their negative, every-man-for-himself, Deist philosophy is in fact the way the Universe works.

They are eagerly awaiting what they think is going to be a massive catastrophe that destroys almost all life on Earth - unless you've hidden out in an underground or off-world base.

The movie '2012' lays out their plans for how they think this is going to happen. Watch the end-credits all the way through and you will see that the movie was based on Fingerprints of the Gods by Graham Hancock, which was about Atlantis.

They absolutely believe that whatever happened to Atlantis is a natural cycle, and it will happen again in or around 2012 - perhaps closer to 2017, based on what some insiders have told me. Others disagree with this and think it is indeed 2012.


Plato's original account of Atlantis formed the basis of everything else that followed. It has given irreversible credibility to any discussion of "the A word," particularly in light of all the physical evidence of massive stone structures that were left behind.

Plato's report clearly indicates that the Atlanteans were at war with a rival civilization. The Cayce Readings said this civilization later migrated to India, but in ancient times they were called "Rama."

Other scholars such as David Hatcher Childress - who has appeared in many episodes of Ancient Aliens on History Channel, including several that I was in - found independent validation of Cayce's account:


The so-called "Rama Empire" of Northern India and Pakistan developed at least fifteen thousand years ago on the Indian sub-continent and was a nation of many large, sophisticated cities, many of which are still to be found in the deserts of Pakistan, northern, and western India.

Rama existed, apparently, parallel to the Atlantean civilization in the mid-Atlantic Ocean, and was ruled by "enlightened Priest-Kings" who governed the cities, The seven greatest capital cities of Rama were known in classical Hindu texts as "The Seven Rishi Cities."

According to ancient Indian texts, the people had flying machines which were called Vimanas. The ancient Indian epic describes a Vimana as a double-deck, circular aircraft with portholes and a dome, much as we would imagine a flying saucer.

It flew with the "speed of the wind" and gave forth a "melodious sound." There were at least four different types of Vimanas; some saucer shaped, others like long cylinders ("cigar shaped airships").

The ancient Indian texts on Vimanas are so numerous, it would take volumes to relate what they had to say.

The ancient Indians, who manufactured these ships themselves, wrote entire flight manuals on the control of the various types of Vimanas, many of which are still in existence, and some have even been translated into English.


In Plato's account, the people of Egypt and Greece united against the Atlanteans, who were trying to colonize their land -- and fended them off. Shortly after this defeat, Atlantis sank - but the Egyptians did not know why.
I want you to read the whole story for yourself - as it was originally written in the Timaeus. I have bolded certain passages for emphasis. One of them negates many common, faltering attempts to identify Atlantis as a small island -- as it was "larger than Libya and Asia put together":

Many great and wonderful deeds are recorded of your state in our histories. But one of them exceeds all the rest in greatness and valour.

For these histories tell of a mighty power which unprovoked made an expedition against the whole of Europe and Asia, and to which your city put an end.

This power came forth out of the Atlantic Ocean, for in those days the Atlantic was navigable; and there was an island situated in front of the straits which are by you called the Pillars of Heracles.

The island was larger than Libya and Asia put together, and was the way to other islands, and from these you might pass to the whole of the opposite continent which surrounded the true ocean...

Now in this island of Atlantis there was a great and wonderful empire which had rule over the whole island and several others, and over parts of the continent.

Furthermore, the men of Atlantis had subjected the parts of Libya within the columns of Heracles as far as Egypt, and of Europe as far as Tyrrhenia.

This vast power, gathered into one, endeavoured to subdue at a blow our country and yours and the whole of the region within the straits.

And then, Solon, your country shone forth, in the excellence of her virtue and strength, among all mankind. She was pre-eminent in courage and military skill, and was the leader of the Hellenes.

And when the rest fell off from her, being compelled to stand alone, after having undergone the very extremity of danger, she defeated and triumphed over the invaders - and preserved from slavery those who were not yet subjugated, and generously liberated all the rest of us who dwell within the pillars.

But afterwards there occurred violent earthquakes and floods; and in a single day and night of misfortune all your warlike men in a body sank into the earth, and the island of Atlantis in like manner disappeared in the depths of the sea.

For which reason the sea in those parts is impassable and impenetrable, because there is a shoal of mud in the way; and this was caused by the subsidence of the island.

Plato got in serious trouble for 'leaking' this secret account of Atlantis from the Egyptian priesthood. Ever since he wrote it, scholars have been hunting for proof of Atlantis and have tried to understand exactly what happened, and where it was. The Cayce Readings and the Law of One series, when combined, give us new insights that dovetail nicely with provable evidence we can dig up through research.

According to the Law of One series, Atlantis sank because of a nuclear attack - not a natural Earth cycle. The Cayce Readings imply a similar story... and given the reliability of the Law of One series in so many other areas, I'm inclined to think it is correct.


When we put all the pieces together, this is what appears to have happened.

Soon after Egypt and Greece fended off the Atlantean invasion, the Ramans dropped nukes on Atlantis in an attempt to defeat them and force them to surrender - similar to how America ended World War II by nuking Japan.

There are several obvious references to the use of nuclear weapons in the Hindu Vedic scriptures - which are easily found with a quick Google search. Instead of winning the war, the Ramans threw the Earth into an unimaginable catastrophe - and ruined it for everyone. No one could have imagined that nuclear weapons would be powerful enough to shift the Earth's equilibrium in space, causing tropical regions to become polar - and vice versa.


The survivors of the Rama empire became known as the 'Aryans.'

These original 'Aryans' were not Caucasian at all. As ice swept over the former paradise of Siberia, they migrated southwards in two groups - one to India and one to Iran.

The latest, greatest scholarship on the Aryan civilization pinpoints Siberia as their main center of origin - and the Zoroastrian scriptures clearly say they had to evacuate and move south due to the sudden crush of ice and terrible winter weather. It appears that 'Gods' continued interacting with the Indians - which is not necessarily a bad thing.

Zarathustra, however, adhered more closely to the original ancient Raman records. This therefore appears to be the closest we can get to what the original, ancient, positive ETs actually told us about the end of the 25,000-year cycle.

The original teachings were almost certainly given before the Ramans nuked Atlantis. I highly doubt the positive ETs had anything to do with this horrific attack - and would have stopped it if they had caught it fast enough.

Now, the ETs are being vastly more careful, and precisely monitor any and all nuclear sites on Earth - as I have written about in detail several times before. Many disasters have been stopped. According to scholars, the Zoroastrian prophecies influenced every other Western culture and its view of what will happen in "end times" - including Judaism and Christianity.

Without exception, every Jew, every Christian and every Muslim owes their vision of an End of the Age to the Zoroastrian inheritance - not to mention any and all of the secret mystery schools. Unfortunately, like the "telephone game," the story has been significantly changed over time.


In The Source Field Investigations, I cite breathtaking new research into the original Zoroastrian scriptures by Boyce and Grenet, which conclusively proves that the original prophecies did not say the world would be wiped out by this cycle change. Using new data that only became available in very recent times, Boyce and Grenet identified that this "doom and gloom" element was originally added in by the early Hebrews.

Boyce and Grenet feel this probably was the result of their imprisonment and enslavement by the Egyptians - and how that horrible suffering in turn affected their view of future events. It is also easy to see how anyone in possession of the secret story of Atlantis could assume that the cataclysm was caused by this same cycle - and not through the use of massive weapons that couldn't have even been imagined in those times.

This same mistake persists through until the present day - as seen by the creators of the movie 2012 optioning the rights to Graham Hancock's Fingerprints of the Gods, which was about the fall of Atlantis.


The actual Zoroastrian prophecies are quite amazing. They do indicate the possibility that the flow of time itself, as we now know it, goes through some sort of radical change. Something profound happens at the most basic level of matter, energy and consciousness.

This seems impossible to most people and undoubtedly triggers sarcastic laughter - but this will also change once people study the "Magnificent" scientific evidence I present in the new book - as Graham Hancock called it. This massive 'download' of information comes out in a gorgeous hardcover book on August 18th, and is already available for pre-orders - at a much lower price than retail!

My publisher tells me that if a mere two days' worth of the people who visit our site pre-order this book before August 18th, we will automatically debut on the New York Times best-seller list.

Why does this matter? It has nothing to do with ego or generating lots of money. (In fact, we make a lot less on Amazon pre-orders anyway... since you will get it for ten dollars less than the retail price.) No... this is about making our voice heard, and getting this information out to the mainstream. It's about credibility. This book takes you far beyond any Disclosure involving a formal announcement that ETs exist. It is an awe-inspiring summary of all the science that has been suppressed by the negative elite - for at least the last century.

You can lock it in now at this super-low price anyone can afford, forget about it, and know that it will deliciously arrive in the mail... at the earliest possible second that it becomes available. Thank you so much for helping us out! Everything I've ever said in any of my lectures or videos is in here, with extensive documented references -- plus much more that no one has ever seen or heard.


There is no doubt that the Zoroastrian texts predict a major energetic event. However, it is also clearly spelled out that it does not wipe out the Earth in cataclysms. Furthermore, these scriptures clearly indicate that the negative will be defeated - not in one sudden, stunning blow, but gradually weakening more and more until they finally just give out.

I believe that prophecy is about to come true - and may even have been fulfilled, to a large degree, before the book comes out. This is one of the most exciting articles I've ever written, because everything I've been telling you to expect for so long is finally happening. Japan was a terrible disaster and we can't change that. However, if you think this is just going to go on and on, I believe you have missed the point.


The negative elite are on their last legs - and at this point, there are remarkable news events that prove everything I've been saying is correct. This means it is very likely that we are about to see the perpetrators go into hiding - and whenever this happens, it will be quite a massive change in society and government as we know it.

They believe it will create anarchy and chaos. I personally do not. Nonetheless it is good to have some stored food and water on hand so you can be prepared for the worst, just in case. The insiders say to be ready for six months. I highly doubt there will be disruptions of anywhere near that length. However, if you end up in an area where there are short-term problems, obviously it's good to have some basic supplies at home.


I don't like dropping dates, but April 8th is going to be a very, very interesting day. This has gotten a bit long, so I will save the bulk of this argument for an update that will emerge by or before this date. Three different massive events all coalesce on this one focal-point - just a week before taxes are due in the US:

SUPREME COURT RULES AGAINST THE FED: The Supreme Court has given the Federal Reserve a two-week deadline to reveal where the money went - as of Monday, March 21st. This decision is one of the most significant events in American history. That brings us to April 4th - four days before the 8th.

GOVERNMENT SHUTDOWN: The Democrats and Republicans in Congress cannot agree on a budget. The US government will therefore shut down as of April 8th -- and there is no indication anyone will stop it. That means no paychecks, no services, et cetera -- for an indeterminate time.

NEW BRETTON WOODS: On this very same day, the first meeting to completely overhaul the world's financial system will take place. Other countries will now have much more of a say. This is the literal fulfillment of everything Fulford and I have been saying for so long. This will create a massive wave of prosperity and directly pave the way for the release of clean, 'free' energy technology.


The final 'endgame' plan of the insiders, as I understand it, is to hit the US with a massive earthquake along the New Madrid fault line during the same approximate time that the government goes into shutdown.

Then, they hope, all the welfare recipients and government employees stop getting their money due to the shutdown. Society quickly disintegrates as all the services stop happening. Meanwhile, the perpetrators flee, or have already fled the country. I'm frankly amazed the conspiracy media hasn't put all this together yet, but they will soon enough. We'll get to that in Part Two. Suffice it to say I do not believe these events will unfold as they are planning.


I think it is very important to understand that the majority of the people in these negative groups are only cooperating because they have been forced to. I know some of them myself and am aware of the horrors they have been subjected to. Did we blame every German for the actions of Hitler and his cohorts in World War II, and hold each of them equally accountable?

Recent dreams have again indicated that many people will not share this view, and will react with fear and violence - at least at first. I do not judge or condemn you if you've been involved in this. You have a safe place here and will not be hated or criticized. Your leaders have lied to you by making you think that if there is a God, you would be rejected. I am personally aware of what you have been through. I am sorry about what happened to you. And I want you to know there is a way out of this that doesn't involve you being tortured like an animal.


There is abundant evidence that the "negative elite" have been trying to collapse the Earth into worldwide anarchy, chaos and pandemonium throughout the entire 20th century, and on into today - but somehow it just never works out that way. They still don't understand that they get their marching orders directly from the people. They are only allowed to create negativity to a degree that is sufficient to balance what We, The People create within our own lives.

The Law of One series tells us our lives on Earth are part of a vast illusion. It is so carefully maintained that even these great worldly powers - with time-traveling technology they got from ETs and other neat toys - are completely unaware of the fact that their plans can never succeed.


If you could see things from Ra's perspective, you would understand that ultimately there is no drama. There is no crisis. There is no conflict. There are no paradoxes.

There is only 'catalyst', as they call it - experiences that we will be offered to the exact degree of precision necessary to open our hearts and awaken our minds. We live in a spiritual reality. Everything we think, see and do is being scrupulously monitored and studied by a greater aspect of our own selves.

Your "Higher Self" already exists now - in what you would think of as the future. It is millions of years more advanced than the level you appear to be at now. Nonetheless, since it exists in a reality where time is not confined to a linear progression, it works to guide you through your life. Dreams are one important way for your Higher Self to get a message through. At other times, the world itself follows the language and logic of the dream plane.

Disclosure - the concept of extraterrestrial humans being formally introduced to us - would definitely represent an irreversible tipping-point in our planet's history, where many apparent dreams suddenly become vividly real.

For two years now, Fulford has been saying that once the Federal Reserve is defeated and a new financial system is announced, we will get Disclosure of free energy technologies that can radically change the planet.
He has also been saying, for two years, that Japan was being threatened with earthquake weapons that would trigger a nuclear disaster - because Japan cut off the flow of money to the Rockefeller faction that has been in place since Rockefeller money was loaned to them, at an exploitive rate, to rebuild their country after World War II.

Now do you see why I'm so excited about what is about to happen?


The story goes much, much farther than this - but right for now, I just want to get this preliminary summary out there. The rest will follow as soon as I get the chance.

You can be with me on April 8th in San Francisco - and get live updates as they come in about what, if anything, happens. We also have a major event coming up in London - so if you are in Europe, this is your big chance!

The Access Your Higher Self video gives you a nearly four-hour course in how to remember, analyze and understand your dreams, and develop your deepest psychic abilities - using the same protocols I developed myself. Many people have jumped in and feel it is well worth the price! Thanks again for all your support. Look within your heart and you will find the answers you seek.

[First posted 6 April 2011]

Sunday, March 28, 2021

I WEEP FOR YOU, POOR DR M (revisited)

[It's been nearly 20 years since I sent this impassioned email to Dr M, at the height of Anwar Ibrahim's mock trial at Augustine Paul's kangaroo court. Guess I was emotionally distraught at the time, despairing at the evil I saw permeating every one of our institutions and seeing so many true patriots arrested under the accursed ISA. My feelings haven't changed, though these days I would probably be a wee bit less self-righteous and a little kinder, having realized that Dr M is, after all, just my own autocratic aspect on a permanent bad hair day.]

Subject: I weep for you, poor Dr M
Date: Sun, 13 May 2001 18:36:53 +0800
From: Antares
To: The Prime Minister of Malaysia


[Delivered in lieu of a tight slap]

I weep for you, poor Dr M
For the terror you must feel
As you gaze upon your final days
From the dizzy heights you've climbed
And you begin to realize
There's nowhere else for you to go
But down, down, down.

The evil you have brought to bear
Upon the spirit of our nation fair
Will never be forgotten -
Not in a hundred years;
And though you cry a thousand tears,
For you there can be no atonement.

You have forfeit your right to a fair trial
By your denial of the basic rights of those
Who oppose your ugly creed;
Your thoughts and deeds have become so vile
As to be almost unspeakable -
I feel the utmost loathing when I think of you
And yet I am driven to feelings of pity.

How will you plead when your soul is weighed
Against all the principles you have betrayed
In your ruthless ambition to succeed
By toying with the forces of fear and greed?

I know you couldn't have done it all alone;
You had to corrupt everyone
Who came into contact with you -
All the men in black and all the boys in blue,
Even the men in white, and your own children too.

Courtesy of Lulu's blog

You could say it was Siti Hasmah who made you do it -
You may curse her with your dying breath
For turning you into another Macbeth.
Both of you sought power and glory
Yet no one knows her sad, sad story:
She wanted her husband to be Mr Big
To make up for the fact that she wears a wig!

I weep for you, Augustine Paul and Abdul Gani Patail:
One fine day you'll be brought to trial
Before the Court of True Justice
And all the innocent ones whose lives you have defiled.
And as for you, Mohtar Abdullah, who knows no shame:
I believe all your children will have to change their names.

I weep for you, poor little rich henchmen (and women)
Who have signed a blood pact with Dr Mephistopheles:
All you corrupt and cynical backers and backbenchers
Of the Barisan Nazional who ought to have quit
While you still had a chance to go down in history

But it's too late now, you've blown your chance!
Your bank balances you had hoped to advance,
Regardless of how low you had to go
To keep up a show, to save your own face,
And protect yourselves from utter disgrace.

I weep for your benighted souls
And your hearts that have turned so cold;
I shed a tear for the decency and humanity
You have mortgaged in utter vanity.

I do not weep for those who have died
Or have been arrested, tortured, and tried
For merely voicing aloud their minds
In hopes of fairer, freer times.
Those who have suffered at the hands of villainy
Have already won a permanent place
In the gallery of national heroes.
Excuse me now as I chant a litany
To rid this land of noxious tyranny:

Hidup Keadilan!
Hidup Kebebasan!
Hidup Kebenaran!
Hidup Rakyat Malaysia!
Hidup Semangat Demokrasi!



Dr M, I invite you to come and have a heart-to-heart chat with me. I'll even serve you tea and cakes. But please arrive without your heavily armed goons. True communication is only possible between equals. Perhaps you're not really interested in true communication - only obtaining PR mileage from being photographed with the likes of Nelson Mandela and Fidel Castro (if only they knew what damage they have done to their own credibility and stature as world leaders!)

Well, even at this late hour, it's still possible to redeem yourself and facilitate a genuine reconciliation across the nation. I would be the first to shake your hand if you would only concede that you have allowed your personal whims to override the national interest: that you have grossly overreacted in seeking vengeance against your erstwhile heir apparent, Anwar Ibrahim, and have in the process effectively privatized the Royal Malaysian Police and made it your personal terrorist squad; that you have been barking up the wrong developmental tree, promoting physical growth at the expense of mental and spiritual - and thereby putting the integrity of our ecosystem in grave jeopardy. Merely concede that serious misjudgments have brought about the current political divide and economic malaise - and we can begin again together to heal and restore this beautiful and prosperous country to its true destiny, not as a nation of criminally-inclined and egomaniacal fools, but as courageous, compassionate, enlightened men and women worthy of planetary - nay, galactic - citizenship.

Upon receipt of this open letter addressed to you, you can choose one of three options:

1) Ignore and delete, dismissing this message as the rantings of yet another lunatic dissident, another "voice in the wilderness." But do so at your own peril. I have never been inspired to address you directly. The fact that I have indicates the gravity of the situation.

2) Order your secret police to investigate and, if necessary, arrest and interrogate me.

3) Call a special press conference and announce three things: (i) you will permit Anwar Ibrahim to receive the medical attention he seeks in Munich and begin legal proceedings to drop all charges against him (hasn't the man and his family suffered enough already at your hands?); (ii) all political detainees will be immediately and unconditionally released with sincere apologies to their families for the anxiety and distress caused; (iii) you will accept Suhakam's recommendations to abolish the ISA, the OSA, the Printing Presses and Publications Act, the Universities Act, and the Illegal Assembly clause in the Police Act.

I'm positive that all Malaysians will receive this news as a veritable miracle (and Heaven knows we're desperately in need of one). No one will actively push to punish you or your family for whatever financial misdemeanors may have been perpetrated in the past. All your best intentions and noblest visions for the nation will be reassessed in a more positive light, and your lifelong dedication to the nation's service will be acknowledged and honored.

For too long you have surrounded yourself with those who are either aligned with your personal agenda or who are in utter fear of your displeasure. Inevitably, you have become disconnected with reality, with how the masses honestly feel about your autocratic management style (which is fast becoming anachronistic as we move into the 21st century).

I neither fear your displeasure nor seek your destruction (truly, I ask only that you re-examine your worldview and make the necessary reattunements before it's too late - believe me, it's NEVER too late!).

Without intending to overdramatize, Dr M, this is definitely your last chance to turn inevitable disaster into the greatest triumph of your political career - to become once again a loved and respected world statesman.


Antares (the erstwhile Kit Leee)
Mother's Day
13 May 2001

This email was posted TWICE to Dr Mahathir. Once on May 13, using my tmnet SMTP server with a bcc to myself and about 130 others. When the post failed to appear in my inbox I reposted it from my Yahoo! address. Recipients on the second posting have confirmed receipt. A week later, I have received no response from the Incurable Doctor. [May 20, 2001]

[First posted 26 March 2008]


Friday, March 26, 2021

Money, sexuality, illumination and the double helix (revisited)

The dollar sign is indeed a subtle variation on the caduceus which can be traced right back to Sumerian images of Enki, whose clan symbol was the serpent (probably denoting his mother's indigenous Snake lineage).

Enki, for those as yet unacquainted with the Anunnaki pantheon, was a master scientist-wizard whose son, Ningishzidda (better known as the Egyptian god Thoth), grew up to be among the greatest healer-scientist-wizards in history. The caduceus reappears in connection with Hermes Trismegistos, the Greek incarnation of Thoth, who initiated Pythagoras into the Mysteries. The caduceus was adopted by the Hermeticists as their emblem, indicating spiritual descent from Enki.

Hippocrates (possibly a student of Pythagoras) is called the Father of Medicine - and his symbol was the caduceus. All doctors were obliged to take the Hippocratic oath (don't know if they still do so today), which explains why the Medical Association also has the caduceus as its emblem.

The serpent represents not just an ancient tradition of scientific wisdom originating on earth from Enki's work as a geneticist (it was Enki who engineered the Adamic race with a little bit of help from Ninhursag, his feisty medical officer and half-sister). There is thus the distinct possibility that the entwined serpents on the caduceus (yes, there are usually two) symbolize the double helix of our DNA.

Kundalini - that mysterious bioelectrical force that supposedly surges through our chakras along the spine - has traditionally been depicted as a coiled serpent at the base of the spine. When awakened, the serpent uncoils towards the crown chakra, facilitating enlightenment, It is therefore highly likely that the early Illuminati (Enlightened Ones) revered the image of the serpent(s) entwined around the tree (or spine).

As in Tolkien - as well as Stars Wars - mythology, the Illumined Ones (aka Istari or Jedi, guardians of cosmic wisdom) were not immune to hubris, hence the occasional "fall from Grace" that produced renegade Illuminati (like Saruman or Annakin Skywalker). It is unfortunate that in our time, being labeled an Illuminatus is not necessarily a compliment. Indeed, everyone assumes you're a member of the New World Order Cabal. (This explains the moral ambiguity of secret mystical orders like the Templars, Freemasons, and so on. David Icke, for one, doesn't conceal his intense mistrust of the Great White Brotherhood and all the Ascended Masters - this is simply because the ones involved with manipulating human evolution are identified as the Archons, what Susan Ferguson calls the Phantasmal Hierarchy in her 'Inanna' books.)

Tree of Knowledge by Martina Hoffman

Tantalizingly, the caduceus image is contained in the story of Adam and Eve as the Serpent on the Tree, representing the potential of kundalini arousal, which would result in tantric consciousness - spiritual adulthood, autonomy from the dictates of a paternalistic deity. (There are actually TWO trees - one called the Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil, the other the Tree of Immortal Life.)

It's easy to see why the caduceus was modified into the dollar sign - after all, money is a universal symbol of energy, it's a form of sexual currency or current - it triggers activity, propels industry, and secures material needs. Hence the money-fixation of our sexually-repressed species - which shows the many facets of activated kundalini, as creative as well as procreative impulses. When we lust after money, it's really the sublimation of an insatiable desire to fuck and be fucked. Perhaps that's why sexual abstinence is often linked with voluntary poverty.

Mr Kundalini by Nathan Hopkins

Modern notions of sexuality are inextricably linked with money. Pornstars don't do it so much for fun as for profit. Me, I'm old-fashioned and prefer to do it for fun. How about it, sexy, doing anything this weekend?

[From an email posted 2 March 2003 on the Magick River Network, first published 17 June 2012, reposted 8 April 2013, 25 March 2016 & 13 July 2017]

Tuesday, March 23, 2021


Mum & Dad in 1961

1958 Family Foto

En route to Melbourne for Dad's bypass surgery, 1981

My beloved mother, Dai Moon Loy, would have begun her 103rd solar orbit today. She left her body 26 years ago on 14 July 1995. A non-alcoholic toast to your sweet memory, Mum! ๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–


Sim Kwang Yang has raised some very pertinent issues in his essay, "Whom should we trust?" Ultimately, we have to love and trust ourselves before we can love and trust anybody else. Otherwise we will end up behaving like the proverbial lemming, incapable of independent thought and action.

Every day I bump into people who continue to parrot well-worn clichรฉs about Anwar Ibrahim being tainted during his long stint in Umno, his unrelenting political ambition, his connections with the Zionist banking fraternity - and, worst of all, the Islamic zeal that first shot him to prominence as a hot-headed leader of ABIM (the Muslim Missionary Movement). All these negative perceptions of the man are ultimately rooted in deep fear of individuals like Anwar Ibrahim whose lives seem like epics compared to most of us.

Every culture produces its own cult heroes - strangers who appear from out of nowhere, slay an ogre, marry a princess, and end up ruling the kingdom. Most of us are fascinated by heroes. After all, that's where our role models come from. However, in recent times, with the rise of the corporate superpower, heroes have become a manufactured product. The mass media conspires to transform ordinary folks into superstars - and then, almost inevitably, they commit deicide by ripping their icons to shreds through vicious gossip and slander.

Sim rightly advises us to reclaim the authority that resides within each of us, to embody within our own beings the noble qualities of the hero. This is the mark of a mature individual. As more of us become our own heroes, we shall no longer be in awe of other heroes. Instead we will befriend and cooperate with them to manifest our collective dream of the Promised Land.

During Mahathir's 22-year reign as PM, he effectively dismantled all the mechanisms by which citizens of a functional democracy can replace non-performing or misbehaving public servants. Without journalistic freedom, no real information reaches the ground, only corporate propaganda. Without academic, artistic and intellectual freedom there can be no open dialogue on values, perceptions and collective visions. Without a politically neutral civil service and police force, a climate of Orwellian absolutism prevails. And without an impartial and independent judiciary, no justice can exist, nor can serious wrongs be righted.

In effect, Malaysian politics under Mahathir was like a public toilet with no working flush mechanism. There's nothing more unpleasant than walking into the loo only to find Unsinkable Floating Objects in the bowl. With no flush - and no bucket and pail to perform the job manually - we had no choice but resign ourselves to the less-than-delightful odor and the disgusting sight of public servants, fattened on sleazy lucre, who simply refused to resign or retire even when they had long overstayed their welcome.

Rather than succumb to mistrust and fear, we would do much better to regard Anwar Ibrahim as a Master Plumber who will take on the unpleasant but absolutely necessary task of fixing the flush mechanism. Once that is accomplished, nobody will be reluctant to "get their hands dirty" by participating in local politics as every adult citizen should. The public bowels will be regularly moved and Malaysia's infamous stinky loos will become a nightmare of our collective past. In other words, let's get a grip on our conditioned reflexes. BN (now PN) has misruled us for far to long by playing on our fears. They fanned the flames of the non-Malays' Islamophobia even as they played up the Malays' anxieties about being overwhelmed by noisy platoons of pig-eating pagans.

In a fear-free atmosphere of open discussion - such as we were experiencing for a decade or so courtesy of the Internet (but even that has faded away, no thanks to MCMC and the globalist tech giants) - clarity, truth and wisdom did have a slim chance of prevailing over atavistic superstitions and taboos. 

When the public lavatories are clean and functional, people will be less likely to walk around full of their own crap - and public servants who become bloated with egotism and greed will find themselves unceremoniously flushed away.

[First published 14 April 2008, reposted 6 March 2013]

Sunday, March 21, 2021

Advent of The Bunyip ~ musings about my son (25th birthday repost)

Grandfather Dai had only three sons, but he had had countless daughters. Countless… because many of them had been drowned at birth in huge jars of urine kept as manure for the fields. In those days a Patriarch’s word was law. The Patriarch was the Progenitor – and the Progenitor held the lives of his progeny in his hands. Taking a daughter’s life was not regarded as murder. It was simply a means of ensuring fewer mouths to feed. ~ Dai Moong Yang (In Those Days, 1995)

Ahau's 13th day on earth
IN EARLY 1993 I spent a few weeks editing and retyping a collection of stories written by my maternal Aunt M.Y. (also known as Grace Lee) - but the significance of the lines quoted above didn’t fully register till 30 December 2012, during a long conversation I had with two healer-counselor friends, Heiko and Selina Niedermeyer, who have studied a wide range of emotional and psychospiritual healing modalities over a span of almost 20 years. They had recently completed a workshop with Bert Hellinger, founder of Systemic Family Constellation, which postulates that no soul enters into physical embodiment in isolation – it invariably enters through a complex soul cluster called the Family Constellation and therefore any healing process must always include an overview of the individual’s family dynamics.

Early blowpipe practice
In the course of our conversation, Selina mentioned that Bert Hellinger had discovered a nexus between murder in the suppressed family narrative (literally skeletons in the closet) and mental/emotional dysfunctionality. Apparently it is not uncommon for the souls of the murdered to be reborn within the murderer’s bloodline – but with characteristic disabilities like Down syndrome, autism or schizophrenia. The moment I heard this I had goosebumps. My sweet cousin in Singapore (the late Dr Dixie Tan) had two dysfunctional sons and two fairly normal daughters. My own brother Mike had been diagnosed with schizophrenia decades ago; and my only son Ahau, labeled autistic by some, was unlikely to ever interact “normally” with others because he was born with an unusual vocal cord that makes it difficult for him to simulate human speech.

Ahau at age 6 (pic by Emanar)
Our great-grandfather Dai, through sheer ignorance compounded with arrogance, had been instrumental to the murder of many newborn female babies. Perhaps the same number that had returned as dysfunctional males to haunt the bloodline like a family curse.

During a two-hour session I had with Heiko and Selina in the first week of January 2013, I conjured the spirit of my great-grandfather Dai. He had the haughty air of a typical Mandarin, scion of a rich land-owning clan, and it took him a while to even acknowledge that drowning newborn female infants was nothing less than murder.

His only defence was that he wasn’t the only one who practiced infanticide; it was fairly common in old China (and even in fairly recent times, many couples aborted female fetuses because the government’s one-child policy didn’t allow them another shot at conceiving a male heir). Finally, that impassive, inscrutable mask shattered and a few teardrops began to flow down his cheeks. He looked, for a moment, humbled.

A 10-year-old Bunyip
“Please ask forgiveness from the souls of those you thwarted from taking earthly incarnation, and then forgive yourself,” I told my great-grandfather’s spirit. When he slowly faded from view, I knew the family curse was finally broken. My only begotten son Ahau Ben would be the last in the bloodline to bear the karmic consequences of his forbears’ abysmal ignorance and self-serving cultural myopia.

After some initial hesitation I decided to share this story to illustrate how “the sins of the fathers” do get passed along the chromosomal track. I use the word “sin” in its original sense: in Middle English the word sinne was a term commonly used in archery to mean “missing the mark.” As a metaphor, missing the mark indicates poor aim, barking up the wrong tree, misreading the map of life, or possessing an entirely erroneous and distorted view of reality.

Humans who have yet to attain enlightenment tend to commit stupid, destructive acts as a result of a benighted perspective, usually inherited through parents and imbibed from their tribal and cultural milieu. A society that places a greater value on male offspring is likely to adhere unquestioningly to patriarchal attitudes that glorify skills in combat and the ability to “bring home the bacon.”

Amphibious Ahau by Dorota Nierzwicka
What happens, of course, is that such males end up in decision-making positions, bringing along their blinkered perspectives and prejudices. As military chiefs they will be constantly itching for the glory or martyrdom of warfare; and as corporate heads their ruthless ambition will blind them and harden their hearts to the wholesale desecration of the sacred landscape for illusory short-term profits and bigger bonuses.

However, life does not occur on a single plane. Almost every event or situation can be interpreted on many levels. Likewise the Advent of The Bunyip (a nickname I bestowed on Ahau Ben when he was a toddler, partly because of his amphibious nature (he loved playing in the bathtub and later the river); but mostly because he did seem to me a somewhat chimerical entity, a creature right out of fairy tales and long-forgotten legends.

Ahau was named after the Mayan starglyph for the Sun or Solar Christ. His second name Ben is inspired by the Mayan starglyph for Skywalker or Celestial Messenger. It so happens that the last King of Mu was reportedly named Ahau too. Not one to settle for the mundane, I delighted in creating a mythic context in which to locate Ahau’s entry into my life. I have written about this at length before, so I will say no more about the mystery of Ahau’s being (click on this link if you wish to read about it).

THERE IS ANOTHER possible explanation for the way Ahau turned out. He arrived at 2 in the morning of the 21st March, 1996, by Caesarean section at the Hospital Kuala Lumpur. I didn’t know till a bit later that the nurses had given him a hepatitis jab without first asking my permission. When they asked me to consent to a second follow-up jab, I expressed deep consternation that they would administer a vaccine to my child without first consulting me. Of course, I refused to grant permission for another jab, having learnt of the unholy alliance between the pharmaceutical companies and the medical profession that has made vaccinations enforceable by law.

Twenty years after Ahau’s birth a heated debate rages between pro- and anti-vaxxers with the main contention being that evidence linking vaccinations with autism has been systematically suppressed by vested interests – because once a vaccine is approved and becomes a routine medical procedure, vaccine manufacturers stand to rake in billions every year. Intuitively, I tend to be anti-vaccination because I generally feel a great deal more trustful of nature and the body’s immune system than of medical or any other species of science – especially since the bulk of it is fueled by corporate funding and private grants.

The possibility that it was a hepatitis jab that triggered my son’s autism has certainly crossed my mind many times. But as I can think of no way I can obtain irrefutable proof of this, it seems pointless to hold on to this suspicion.

Ahau is the way he is and those of us who know him well adore him exactly the way he is – even though it still strikes me as absurd that he should take advantage of everyone around him, recruiting us into his service, instead of taking more responsibility for himself. No doubt this can be attributed to the fact that his ancestors on my mother’s side were landed gentry (my aunt boasted that it took men on horseback 11 days to collect the rent) - all the males being archetypal spoilt brats - or perhaps Ahau’s sense of entitlement is due to his residual memory of having been an absolute monarch in a lost civilization called Mu.

22 September 2017

[First posted 25 September 2017 & 20 March 2019]

Wednesday, March 17, 2021

Provocative snippets from an archived Sent Folder... (repost)

Last week I finally handed in my Compaq laptop to HP to get the CD/DVD drive replaced... and I've  regained access to a pile of CDs dating back almost 10 years wherein I've stored all sorts of data - from digitized music files and scanned images to entire folders of emails written 9 years ago. Stuff that would otherwise have disappeared forever with each hard drive crash. Here's a random selection of email snippets (dating from 2003 and 2004) which I reproduce here because the information is still relevant and may be of interest to some of you... and also because I'm utterly bored with the desperate dimness of all the death throe effluvia oozing from the orifices of the recalcitrant (and soon to be irrelevant) misruling elites...


And the simple Truth is: all our religious dogmas and all the teachings allegedly introduced to us by a succession of Avatars has been filtered, tampered with, twisted beyond recognition - simply to keep us barking up the wrong tree and believing - as the Manichaeans did - that Spirit is "above" and "transcendent" to Matter and that we have to kill our egos and suppress our animal natures to "reach God."

Indeed, the Ascension process itself has been turned on its head - leading so many "New Agers" to believe it's more important to be "spiritual" than "merely" physical (as in being completely anchored in molecular awareness and physical form). What is actually happening to me is that I'm finishing the Complete Download of my Primal Godself so as to fully DESCEND into my body and reclaim it from the Worms that have long believed our bodies to be their food source.


Dear Blair,

You bragged about your prowess as a ritual magickian of the lefthand path, but added that you've since gone ethical and got yourself a job. What sort of work do you do where you have to be up at 5 a.m.? From your energy and syntax, I'd guess that you're an old-headed young man - maybe in your late twenties or early thirties. Am I far off the mark?

As for the rant itself, your grievances are fairly universal and accurately describe the 3D Matrix of Death, Decay and Disease. However, I might have thought a veteran magickian would have found some way to operate beyond the mundane necessity of being a wage slave!

Your present circumstances could, of course, indicate that you went overboard in your magickal work at some point and had your wings chemically clipped - and then you were reinserted into the Matrix, which explains your deep resentment of everything around you.

What I find particularly intriguing is that you call yourself an "Anarcho-Monarchist" - which is precisely how I once described my own political leanings. I explained it thus: I would willingly pledge fealty to someone who naturally inspired allegiance and respect - a true monarch with a luminous crown chakra like, say, Yeshu or Aragorn or Frank Zappa or Sting.

Alas, there are only too few true monarchs to be found in recent centuries (most of the present day royal houses being populated by descendants of usurpers). Indeed, I would myself be willing to accept the lifelong burden of divine kingship (in Thailand the tradition of the Chakravartin or Universal King goes back to ancient times) - but it has been a very long while since humans were able to perceive the luminosity of chakras and thereby recognize those who have attained specific levels of spiritual maturity and cosmic consciousness.

Today it's the corporate-sponsored campaign video produced by expensive spin-doctors - and even then the real power-broking action happens behind the scenes.

The Illuminati network began as a covert resistance to a corrupt and militarily mighty "Holy" Roman Empire - indeed the Knights Templar were originally dedicated to the retrieval and protection of sacred emblems pertaining to the rightful heirs to the throne of Judaea - and by extension the rest of the "civilized" world. Their entire mission was to reclaim planetary governance. But, as we all know, they were either destroyed by the Inquisition or infiltrated and splintered into bickering factions, and this holds true till today.

In lieu of a rightful monarch with whom to align, the only viable alternative has been anarchy.

This is, of course, Tolkien's central motif in the Ring Trilogy... and the "Return of the King" happens to be the core metaphor running through all epic myths, from Odysseus to Star Wars to Tarzan of the Apes and the New Testament.

How I have resolved the problem is to reconcile the Anarchist in me with the Monarch inherent within my DNA. By consciously accepting the scepter of Divine Kingship as exemplified by Yeshu the Christ, I no longer have to seek externally for a Higher Authority.

By embodying deep compassion and universal understanding, the Monarch Within has come to accept and love the Anarchist, the Peter Pan within; and thus Reason and Spirit can be unified and our core beings reintegrated as Divine Fractals sovereign unto our true selves.

I hope this offers you a degree of solace. I do feel a great empathy with your soul.

Blair wrote:

I do not want to slam the door shut forever on God. I have my problems with God but in the final analysis I do forgive God, and would hope to be given understandings as to why I have suffered so much in this world, when I am reunited with the Universal Mind after death....

Ah, prodigal Sun! No fatted calf this time around, pointless taking risks with Mad Cow on the rampage! You are nevertheless greatly beloved and cherished. Indeed, your words reveal an amazingly innocent inner core.

Thanks for your thought-provoking, love-evoking response, Blair. If the urge ever arises, do tell me what sort of suffering you've survived. Sometimes it helps just to tell someone.


Hey Antares! How are you? I am still to get there some time, but maybe not in time for the stargate activation ceremony. My intent will nonetheless be with you.. So wise wizard of the light, I have a question for you about my present journey... Seems I am processing a past life experience and /or integrating some energy that I could only describe as reptilian. Extreme aggression, amazing physical stamina, sexual power trips and mind control are some of the attributes. Quite terrifying for peaceful old Brahma. I thought for a while that I was being possessed by a nasty spirit - but it is all me, albeit an ancient me to be integrated, I now see. Does this make any sense to you? Any assistance or suggestions? ~ Brahma

Greetings, Brahma!

Good that this program is manifesting so vividly a this point - so at least your other aspects can become aware of it and pay attention to what it means.

We are all a multi-layered genetic cocktail - but the renegade reptilian DNA distorted the morphogenetic field to the extent that we now witness eruptions of acute sadomasochism and other socio-pathological behaviors - rape, torture, brutal murder, child molestation, berserker gods, and so on - across the board.

Seems you have a sizeable dose of reptilian creator-god genetics from the early days of the invasion and colonization of the Earth, interwoven with the more angelic strands - indeed, nothing to be alarmed about as most of us with strong ego drives have this "problem" - it's what propels individuals like Alexander or Charlemagne or Napoleon to seek "greatness" by dominating others.

Can be a shitty program to deactivate, especially since the adrenaline rush of the artificial power trip is really addictive. But once you recognize and identify the genetic trait as one that's being phased out of the evolutionary process, you consciously make a decision to gently let go of it rather than be dragged back down into the hellish pits of holographic horrors wherein pain and suffering are either inflicted or endured.

I guess it's something akin to "possession" by hostile astral parasites - only thing is, the impulse to dominate is inherent within the DNA - that's why the renegade reptilians opted for their agenda of "racial supremacy" and began tampering with their own genetics to turn themselves into a ruthless, unfeeling, warlike species capable of pillaging and plundering and planting their genetic flag wherever they could, becoming universal predators and introducing the fang-and-claw survival-at-all-costs program into our embedded circuitry.

In India, the ascetics became vegetarian, fasted, subjected their bodies to all sorts of rigorous discipline in an attempt to exorcise exactly this genetic trait - with varying results. The emotional therapies available to us today are far gentler and possibly more effective.

Heiko & Selina Niedermeyer
For instance, what Heiko & Selina have been doing with the Releasing technique they practice can soften up the subconscious so that it discharges these stored memories into the conscious where they can be transmuted - and hence HEALING soon follows.

Many ways this can happen - different strokes for different folks. In your case, I feel you have sufficient intelligence and self-awareness to begin the process - but it's usually easier if you can find an empathetic sounding board - someone who can assist you in the process.

The fact that you brought up this issue is already a very positive indication that you've begun the task of shedding this unnecessary skin of reactionary reptilian implants and liberating yourself from apocalyptic scenarios. If you can do it, so can Ariel Sharon and Dick Cheney!

When we meet at Magick River, I'll give you a scan and see if the "problem" is already resolved, as it may well be by the time you get here.

Brahma wrote: You seem to be my sounding board at the moment, hope you’re still traveling with me on all this stuff... and might have some answers on this one too.

The shamanistic experiments you describe can be fun to play with but a lot of times you're opening your field to etheric micro-organisms - yup, they're really just like bacteria - that can ultimately fuck up your ability to be a simple, straightforward, honest, divine human with absolutely no problems.

It's a bit like being an Orang asli kid with a powerful catapult larking around in the forest and shooting at anything that moves: first he hits a couple of defenceless birdies, then he knocks down a green mango, and finally he inadvertently shoots an old boar right in the snout... well, those guys have wicked tusks, you don't want one of those charging at you through the psychic undergrowth!

In effect, you've been toying with a species of black magic very popular with the Khazarian or Ashkenazi Jews who were well-known for their occult knowledge (that's why all their best wizards and astrologers have always been co-opted to serve the Babylonian nobility, manifest in modern times as the Military-Industrial-Financial Complex). These mentalists were really into creating golems to do their bidding and steal stuff for them, sort of like a voodoo Fagin.

I don't know if this sort of magic originated in Lemuria - it must have - and then migrated to Atlantis before becoming part of the Ashkenazi Jewish and Gypsy heritage.

You're a big boy, Brahma, and can look after yourself - so I'm not going to pass you any avuncular advice you probably won't take on board anyway. ALL ELSE SAID, INNOCENCE IS STILL THE BEST POSSIBLE INSURANCE AGAINST INSANITY!


First of all, I'd like to share my gut feelings on the much-circulated "alien intervention" message... the sentiments expressed therein seem quite benign and well-intentioned and are in fact the projection of what millions of awakening humans have long secretly hoped to witness, sort of like hearing the triumphant blare of bugles as reinforcements from the U.S. Cavalry arrive just in time to rescue the occupants of the besieged fort from being scalped by marauding redskins - the very stuff of classic Hollywood cowboys-&-injuns movies.

Today many would laugh at the obvious spin and take the side of the vastly outgunned Injuns rather than the invading U.S. Cavalry. Nonetheless, the desire for a deus ex machina solution to seemingly insurmountable problems is very much part of our adolescent psyche - and the 5th human root race is predominantly just reaching young adulthood in spiritual terms, which means adolescent yearnings are still pretty much present.

While reading the long "channeling" from the unnamed alien group (anonymity always makes me suspicious; there is so much crap on the Internet, because email addresses are so impersonal and conceal more than they reveal) the teenaged part of me was thrilled to think that we might soon be sitting around chewing the fat with our starry brothers and sisters - BUT the more "street-savvy" part of me was saying: "Wait a minute! Doesn't this sound a bit like a new-age species of cargo cultism (this refers to the "religion" spawned by early contact between Papua New Guinean natives and the very first white men they encountered who arrived by seaplane, bearing wonderful gifts)?

Soon after the initial largesse of baccy, beads and baubles, came the colonizers, timber merchants, and troops...

Now I'm not at all xenophobic by nature - but my deep intuition informs me that REAL transformations ALWAYS occur from WITHIN. The bi-polarity of our earthly Punch & Judy melodramas exist only as a mirror to our own split personalities, they are intended as feedback to help us outgrow the urge to forever seek scapegoats and distract ourselves from the inner quest with external enemies, real or imagined.

In my opinion, the televised arrival of visitors from other sectors of the Milky Way or beyond will do little for our own spiritual maturation. The mess we are facing is of our own making, and must be cleared by our own realizations, through our own volition.

For the most part our problems stem from the fact that the Adamic Race was genetically manipulated (by "fallen angel" ETs generally called the Jehovian-Anunnaki) to seek deliverance through messiahs and follow charismatic leaders. This is what we have to outgrow: the desire to give away our power to emblems of external authority, whether they be white-smocked scientists, politicos in dark suits and red ties, blonde bombshells from Venus, or cute little blue balls of light from the Pleiades.

It's not that I disbelieve in a richly populated cosmos - indeed I know we are not alone and never have been. However, I've long sensed that bona fide bodhisattvas from other evolutionary spirals enter our physical reality by projecting fractals of themselves holographically into earthly incarnations - ET emissaries and starry midwives to humanity's ascension are already amongst us by the thousands, perhaps even millions - but they are in human embodiment and can be contacted via email.

No need for them to arrive like some Industrial Light Magic special effect in mechanical merkabas (I'm reminded of Tim Burton's Hawaiian music hating Martians in red jockey shorts).

As for the OTHER message.... sorry, I am quite repulsed by the low-grade frequencies emanating from it. There are two significant clues that reveal that its source is not impeccable:

1) The name JESUS CHRIST is a gross distortion of the human potential for full fusion with the divine, a state of being described as Christ consciousness or attaining the Christos. No one who truly understands the process will use the vulgar Christianized version which robs it of authentic meaning.

In the first place the Anglicized name "Jesus" disconnects us from the experience of being "Yeshua" (the Hebrew name written as IH-Sh-VH, which kabbalistically denotes the alchemical wedding of Spirit and Matter). And by corrupting the name to "Jesus Christ" we become blind to the fact that the Christ is NOT a surname but an office or title like King or President - and it means "perfect master" or "anointed one."

In other words, the Christ is a state of being that we are all destined to attain, sooner or later, just as Buddha is another degree of Awareness often described as "awake" or "enlightened." Now if the name were rendered "Jesus the Christ" (as you find in The Aquarian Gospel) - then there's a good chance that the source of the information is kosher, simply because this reveals that the writer is referring to a culture hero popularly known as Yeheshua or Yeshua or Joshua (referred to as Emmanuel in the first chapter of the New Testament) who successfully attained Christ consciousness 2,000 years ago and made it possible for posterity to do the same.

The "Second Coming" indicates a massive awakening into Christ consciousness - crucial to our ascension. While it is perfectly possible that the Sananda aspect that incarnated 2,000 years ago as Yeshua might be physically present on Earth at this juncture, he would certainly not be accepted as such or recognized by those who regard themselves as Christians.

2) The tract ends with AMEN - the name of a bloodthirsty god of war (also known as Amun or Moloch) whose corrupt priesthood continues to mislead humanity and whose insidious and distorting influence extends to all entrenched institutions on Earth. Wherever economic and military might rules, there you shall find the hidden hand of AMEN!

Indeed, there is little doubt that all institutionalized religions on Earth - including the Mammonism practiced by our rapacious corporate entities - merely serve as fronts for the hypocritical and vampiric cult of Amen.

[First posted 18 June 2012, reposted 21 September 2015 & 21 February 2019]