Friday, February 20, 2009


One of the greatest compliments, I think, is to be quoted by others. However, it's a pleasure one doesn't easily come by. When was the last time YOU were quoted? At least I can report with a measure of pride that the most recent occasion was when I received a signed copy of Dean Johns's Even Madder About Malaysia (SIRD, 2009) and discovered that he had quoted me on the back cover blurb. It was such a thrill I thought to myself, why wait for others to quote you? Why not quote myself? So here's a random selection of original quotes culled from various emails and essays written over the years, covering a wide range of topics. And, of course, you're quite welcome to quote me anytime you like!

Over the past decades I have learnt to accept occasional bouts of depression and spiritual paralysis as a way of compensating for my arrogant and megalomanic tendencies during periods when I'm functioning at peak. I'm glad to report that in the last 10 years or so I've been able to minimize my downtime to no more than a few minutes - or a few hours under extreme circumstances - whenever that ancient sense of futility rears its world-weary head and threatens to derail me from fulfilling my true destiny and potential – which is to reclaim the throne of my personal Ithaca by drawing the magical bow of Odysseus or the Pendragon’s sword from the stone, thereby restoring the balance and harmony of all worlds.

I define heaven as limitless abundance and infinite possibilities for all beings - which is why I accept all viewpoints and terminologies without feeling the need to intervene or censor.

One-third of humanity constitutes what Drunvalo Melchizedek calls "the moderns" - a mutation of the Adamic human especially in the last 500 years into skin-encapsulated, ego-driven "individuals" with acute cosmological myopia and an insatiable lust for the trappings of material success. These are the anthropocentric apologists and defenders of the status quo, who have internalized Darwinian them-or-us notions of survival, and haven't yet released primordial trauma loops or scarcity conditioning in their genetic encoding. But they'll get "there" - sooner or later. Everyone does, eventually. There are no "losers" in the cosmic dance of eternal transmutation. Each of us is Brahma, Shiva, and Vishnu all rolled into one. And we’re all Buddha and Jesus too.

The Educated Mind is, essentially, a self-exploring alphanumeric symbol processing system - a software program that took on a life of its own, like Pinocchio. How real is it? Real enough, so that a heap of words strung together in sentences, and edited into a book, can shift your entire life around - or at least make you smile, frown, weep, laugh, seethe with rage, whoop with joy, look at everything with new eyes. The Book, indeed, can fuck up an entire species - make people dumber than sheep, mistrust their neighbors, question their own worthiness, discourage them from thinking beyond the confines of dogma, even justify genocide as in pogroms, crusades and jihads.

The REAL action is going on INSIDE of us, on the molecular and genetic levels. The whole story is about bloodlines and how the original divine DNA was literally stolen and mucked around with by a renegade bunch of reptoids with aberrant notions of dominion over other lifeforms. This has led to such a confusion and profusion of genetics coming into the planetary mix, not a single species now has any of its primordial genetics intact.

However, the original Golden Thread Prime Genetic of Immortality is hidden within all the other programs and when you locate it and allow it to reactivate and reinstate itself as sovereign and supreme, as it actually is, since it derives directly from Prime Creator Source, then your multiple selves begin to line up correctly and can be wholly reintegrated on the atomic, molecular, cellular, AND soulular levels - and that's what is meant by the word INTEGRITY.

And only with Molecular Integrity restored can we experience REALITY/ROYALTY beyond the holographic hell loosely called The Matrix. Freedom IS the destination, as Martin Luther King declared, so let freedom ring clear as a bell - but clarity comes from purity of feeling, beyond the distortion of fear and hate programming.

Institutionalized education is definitely among the biggest scams of all - but every state deems it NECESSARY, in fact COMPELS ATTENDANCE by introducing Truancy Acts, thereby coercing all children of a certain age to turn themselves in for social formatting, so they can grow up as Happy Slaves.

A great deal of confusion stems from using the word EGO to define the unique sense of identity we call INDIVIDUALITY. It was fairly inevitable for the Self to experiment with self-fragmentation so that it could explore the myriad possibilities presented by INDIVIDUALIZATION. Up to a certain point, the acute sense of INDIVIDUALITY can pose new problems: alienation, isolation, anomie, which ultimately results in the overly individualistic self becoming carcinogenic (antisocial, vandalistic, competitive, criminal).

However, now that we have nifty new concepts like the Hologram Universe and FRACTALS to play around with, it's possible for us to view self as a perfect microcosm of Self ("My Father and I are One"). This way we can restore the integrity of the EGO's sense of purpose - and its awareness of the Whole, the Original Core Self, so that it consciously and willingly cooperates with Macrocosmic Self as it continues to explore, experiment, and experience the infinite permutations of its Divine Selfhood.

Ego, ergo sum.


de minimis said...

Bro Antares

This is a mindblowing post. I love it. These are things I read about but am not equipped to write about. And, here you are with your ability to communicate very abstract ideas. Great stuff.

Starmandala said...

CT - A thousand thanks for enjoying my off-the-wall musings. Simply had to step back a bit from politics. The reek was becoming unbearable...

Unknown said...


You must compile your writings into a book, my dear friend. These are treasures which must be handed down from one generation to the next and to me, you are a national literary heritage! I will most certainly be the first in line to buy your book (am still trying to get your other books!!!!) and to ask you to autograph it for me :-).

My entire household read and love your blog, writings and are constantly being inspired by you.

Thanks so much, for breathing knowledge, creativity, wisdom and so much more into our lives.

hugs and much love from the north,
paula and family

P.S. I feel the same way re politics :(

Anonymous said...


I would like crack a joke about these two acronyms call "SELF" and "EGO", hope you don't mind.

SELF...Surely Everybody Loves Fucking
EGO...Endlessly Getting Orgasm

By the way,there's this urge in me to ask this question... miraculously it appears when you're born and mysteriously it desappears when you die, what is it? We use everyday.
It's this very thing that makes us human beings metaphysically the same though we are physically different in many ways.Point to ponder.
I wish I could be as articulate and skilled as you, Antares. I love your postings especially on philosophy.

Anonymous said...

You've got mail!

ocho-onda said...

"And only with Molecular Integrity restored can we experience REALITY/ROYALTY beyond the holographic hell loosely called The Matrix. Freedom IS the destination, as Martin Luther King declared, so let freedom ring clear as a bell - but clarity comes from purity of feeling beyond the distortion of fear and hate programming."

Freedom ? What freedom ? We are not meant to be free. :-)
Everything gets recycled back to Nature to our source !
What comes first - the chicken or the egg ?
Do humans really know who they are, where they are from,why they are here ,can they truly justify their existence ? (Perhaps, if we know the answers to these questions, we will all start to look and treat each other differently, like more humanely !?!
We are born into this world,we try to make our life and existence as meaningful as we humanly and possibly can and then we die and become fertilizer !
So, we are never free because we have to repeat the cycle of propagation to prolong our existence as a specie !
What goes up must come down. We are all held together and contained in this oblate spheroid called Earth by the same gravitational force that holds all the planets to the Sun - the centre of our universe.
So, the word, freedom , is a misnomer because to be truly free we will all cease to exist as a specie !
The other alternative will be to take a rocket to transport ourselves into outer space and drift on and on and on into infinity !

ocho-onda said...

Maybe we are not meant to be so emotionally and physically attached!
The human spirit is supposed to move on once the body has expired.
If we look at the animal kingdom, the bondage between parent and offspring is severed if not lessened once the offspring matures.
Whereas humans have this unique behavioral trait to not only maintain their special bondage with their living but with their dead as well as in the carrying on with the paternal name.
We are not meant to accumulate all this material junk that in our delusion, we called treasures because we know we can never bring it with us when we expire but instead, we decide to pass on our material junk to our next of kin and in the process develop the habit of possession, control and greed and that is the root of all human miseries - both pleasures and pains !

Starmandala said...

MWS - Thank you for always being so kind & supportive, my dear. Your positive feedback is so gratifying & so absolutely inspiring :-) Hugs to you & all your sweet family! xox

Mazen - I'm terrible at riddles, so kindly provide the answer! Thanks for enjoying my random musings, friend :-)

ShadowFox - Will respond anon! :-)

Oocho-Onda - Many scientific determinists dispute the possibility of "free will" - & sometimes I'm inclined to share this perspective too. One of the hardest things to accomplish is to remain detached from one's beliefs, opinions & tentative conclusions - allowing for fresh input that might drastically modify or nullify earlier perceptions & hypotheses.
Nevertheless, with the advent of computers & wide exposure to programming language & the intricacies of encoding, some of us are beginning to understand that default behaviors can be consciously bypassed, manually overriden & deleted altogether - if we know where the codes & switches are & how to customize them. Yogis are able to adjust their own metabolism using breathing techniques (pranayama) - in fact they can slow their heartbeats down to the bare minimum for survival of brain functions & thus suspended in animation, can voluntarily put their bodies in hibernation indefinitely. Some can bypass the digestive mechanism & live for years on water, photons & prana! Very thought-provoking, what you say about attachment to possessions & our attempt to attain immortality by proxy via our progeny...

Azer Mantessa said...

Always enjoy the rhythm of your writing ... so profound :-)

Thus I do feel reality exists with everything I see outside of me comes from the unseen world. Actions taken emerge from the unseen realm of my beating thinking heart.

ocho-onda said...


I am inclined to think that scientific knowledge is the key to unlock Life's bountiful mysteries, hopefully to provide a conclusive explanation to the human existence and more.
And that Humans should instead make good use of their natural gift of ingenuity to promote peace and human co-existence - the very least we can achieve is to discard our negative behavioral traits !
Perhaps, we need to explore our genetic make-up to delete all the obsolete codes !?! :-)

Anonymous said...

" One of the hardest things to accomplish is to detached from one's beliefs...." - Antares

I find the hardest thing to real-ise and to achieve is to detach not only from detachments but from the idea of detachment.

Krishnamurti spoke of choiceless awareness. But, that itself is a choice.He focused on one aspect of reality. What is the difference between Don Juan's separate reality and that of quantum mechanics? Or those who take psychedelic drugs and those who meditate seriously- samatha or Vipassana or whatever? Or even those who claim they are channels of revealed teachings?

Even if we subject Buddha to brain scan when he achieves enlightenment,we still do not know what makes him enlightened. Just like dissecting Einstein or Lenin's brain do not unlock the mystery. So, the search for an answer to human problems at the molecular level is insufficient, if not futile. When we think about God or the Buddha, certain parts of our brain is activated. A religious question can become a scientific enquiry. Even if you know which cells are energised, do we become more compassionate?

Heisenberg,the proponent of the uncertainty priciple, if I am not mistaken, once remarked that what you see is your method, not things as they are. Your method allows you to see what is allowable within the range of the method, the instruments and the theory. So, we need to examine the method first to clarify the problems created by the homo sapiens.

Anonymous said...

The above 'Anonymous' about detachment etc is from Gladfly.